Have I lost my grip on emotions so much that I no longer understand any of them any more? Or is this something that I never would have understood? Have I ever been motivated by revenge? Or felt that something done to me was so unjust that I could not set it aside? Not that I can recall ( Read more... )

A relatively quiet night at the Kodo; it was pleasant to just sit and listen, to not feel obligated to pay particular attention to anything or respond. And to laugh. Why do I find the antics of trolls amusing, while those of gnomes annoying? Both races are completely insane. Perhaps it's because gnomes are supposed to be cute, while nobody pretends ( Read more... )

I've been told several times by my instructors that I should keep a record of missions, tasks, contacts, and lessons. So this morning I picked up a blank book and here it is. And I find myself completely unable to think of a single training-related thing to write about ( Read more... )

Elves.

I'm still angry about that. Not about the cultist--drugged, brainwashed, mind-controlled, whatever; his damn cult has probably driven hundreds of innocents to their deaths and worse, at some point he chose to go join them. But the bird didn't have a choice. She doesn't know about politics, religion, worshipping Old Gods and making devices to ( Read more... )

Back from a lovely, quiet - I don't know, it was half mission and half vacation - in Icecrown. We were out there for some time, so I thought - I really don't know why, I hadn't seen "people" in a while, and the invitation to this party from Finwe was sitting in my mailbox. I suppose it was a whim thought, "why the fel not?" and went. Besides, the ( Read more... )

Zurali: a troll. Tribal affiliation? Residence? Cohabitation? Need a reliable source of information. Will be expensive; more gathering of funds required.

Many friends/defenders - be careful in public spaces.

That was intensely satisfying.

I feel spectacular. The Doctor is back, my demon problem has been taken care of, I've gone through hopefully my last change of vitality, I have exciting new things to research... I hadn't realized how much my situation had been affecting my thinking; I'm more clear-headed than I have been in ages.The Doctor has essentially released Squeaky on ( Read more... )

At least I don't have to go all the way back to first principles... but I am going to have to go pretty far back, to figure out where I started getting things wrong. I've held off on picking apart the book too much, just been identifying the parts I can tease out seperately, but there's some things that fit together in ways I don't understand. If ( Read more... )