Angry but upset
I'm soooooo frustrated!! My mum gave me another one of her "you really should be trying to do more now" talks. I really hate it when she goes off on one like this. It all started yesterday cos I went to see me paediatrician.
Basically she said that there was nothing more she could do for me 'medically' wise. I've tried lots of different medications and therapies etc. to no avail so now I'm kinda stuck in a rut. When my mum asked her if she thought I should be doing more pysically she said:
"I don't think she should be doing more. I know that she needs to do more."
I tried to ignore that comment but I was absolutely livid on the inside. I had only just finished telling her that whenever I try to increase my activity or try something new I get thrown back and end up in bed for days on end! *sigh*
My physiotherapist has also said that I should be doing some sort of physical activity to keep my strength up and stop my muscle wasting etc. I told her her that I use to do salsa lessons and she told me to try and start it again. I tried it once and had a severe relapse. :-( Also, the lesson is at 8.30 in the evening and I'm usually dead by then, so I don't tend to go. But my physio said that I should go anyway even if I don't join in. But I don't want to!!!
I also had to be weighed and stuff yesterday and I was so upset cos I've put on more weight. Mum, bless her, went out and bought me an outfit but then spoiled it this morning by having a go at me about my eating habit.
I don't eat breakfast in the mornings because I always wake up with severe nausea and eating makes me physically sick. So I end up eating lunch around 11.30/12.00. Then I'll eat again at about 3.00 and then have dinner at 6.30 sorta time.
Mum said that I have to eat in the morning "because peopl who don't eat breakfast get fat!" Thatose where her exact words! She kept using the word fat and talking about my weight. I know that I'm overweight but I really can't help it! Then she was going on saying that I don't do the things that I'm advised to do.
-My nurse has said that I should be walking around the block everday.
-My physio wants me to go to a salsa lesson at 8.30 at night!
-And my consultant wants me to increase school, go out with friends every weekend, and to stop spending so much time with my mum!
You know what! I'm going to do all these thing! I don't care that it will probably cause a severe relapse! I want to prove to my mum that I'm taking my time for a reason.
Basically she said that there was nothing more she could do for me 'medically' wise. I've tried lots of different medications and therapies etc. to no avail so now I'm kinda stuck in a rut. When my mum asked her if she thought I should be doing more pysically she said:
"I don't think she should be doing more. I know that she needs to do more."
I tried to ignore that comment but I was absolutely livid on the inside. I had only just finished telling her that whenever I try to increase my activity or try something new I get thrown back and end up in bed for days on end! *sigh*
My physiotherapist has also said that I should be doing some sort of physical activity to keep my strength up and stop my muscle wasting etc. I told her her that I use to do salsa lessons and she told me to try and start it again. I tried it once and had a severe relapse. :-( Also, the lesson is at 8.30 in the evening and I'm usually dead by then, so I don't tend to go. But my physio said that I should go anyway even if I don't join in. But I don't want to!!!
I also had to be weighed and stuff yesterday and I was so upset cos I've put on more weight. Mum, bless her, went out and bought me an outfit but then spoiled it this morning by having a go at me about my eating habit.
I don't eat breakfast in the mornings because I always wake up with severe nausea and eating makes me physically sick. So I end up eating lunch around 11.30/12.00. Then I'll eat again at about 3.00 and then have dinner at 6.30 sorta time.
Mum said that I have to eat in the morning "because peopl who don't eat breakfast get fat!" Thatose where her exact words! She kept using the word fat and talking about my weight. I know that I'm overweight but I really can't help it! Then she was going on saying that I don't do the things that I'm advised to do.
-My nurse has said that I should be walking around the block everday.
-My physio wants me to go to a salsa lesson at 8.30 at night!
-And my consultant wants me to increase school, go out with friends every weekend, and to stop spending so much time with my mum!
You know what! I'm going to do all these thing! I don't care that it will probably cause a severe relapse! I want to prove to my mum that I'm taking my time for a reason.