I'm referring to Let The Right One In, of course ( Read more... )

I am so fucking sick of everything. Absolutely fucking everything ( Read more... )

In Journalism, again ( Read more... )

IT IS REALLY FUCKING HOT.
Just so you know.

ANYWAY.

I don't know how I am at the moment [except really fucking hot]. She's... confusing me [and if you know me or follow this LJ at all you know who I am referring to]. Like... yeah.

I told her I wouldn't mind being like Jonne and Kris were in a fic I wrote [which I should probably post on sweetndeceitful ] if ( Read more... )

To give some backstory [because I haven't posted in a few days], here's what's gone down ( Read more... )

I'm at school right now, with seven minutes until I go home.

I just... needed to post.

Some shit went down with... her today. And right now I hate myself more than I thought I could.

Apparently, I fuck everything up regardless. And then I give up.

But the worst part? She doesn't think I'm ready.

Christ.

If I wasn't ready, if I wasn't prepared to dive in ( Read more... )

So.

Today sucked. A lot.

I don't know why I went to talk to her, but I did. I needed... closure or something.

Instead, it just... hurt more afterwards.

Some of the things she said... they weren't meant to hurt me, but they did. And I fucking hate myself now for not telling her before I did. Because I timed it all wrong. If I'd told her a week before ( Read more... )

I'm wrapped up in a blanket with my headphones on. Thankfully.

I've been sneezing all day, goddamnit. And I'm sick of it. And I'm close to tears, but not because I've been sneezing.

I was just... looking back through some of her posts. Seeing if she had any new ones - she hasn't posted anything since that PostSecret that she knows made me feel guilty ( Read more... )

So yeah.

I'm... not good. At all.

As in, on-the-edge not good.

Shay's abandoned me, effectively. And with everything else going on, I didn't need that.

So yeah.

I had my i need you playlist on all day today. I think that shows.

And I wrote three drabbles in an hour. Which never happens unless something is wrong.

And something is definitely wrong.

So.

I'm ( Read more... )