There is a long story that was the breaking point for this decision, but if I must be honest - my heart was never as into work as it was before having children. My goals changed, my focus shifted, and my direction was more clear. I recalled my own youth, where my mother was the mom who was on every field trip, was at every school event, and made me ( Read more... )

i maybe in love with a doctor. but he’s not that kind of doctor.

i’ve been watching entirely too much doctor who these days. i haven’t liked a show like this since BSG, and it’s a delight to have a nice serial to go home to and watch when i have the time to do so. i was enamored of eccleston, but i’ve fast found the same affection for tennant. ( Read more... )

but i really have been depressed for a while now. my focus is gone, my energy level is nil. i’m even getting weepy - not like myself at all, honestly. i’ve given a lot of thought about writing all of this down, because let’s be truthful - who knows who really reads this. is it someone i work with, would it get back to people who might treat me or ( Read more... )

so this tuesday, i went back to work.

it was, at risk of sliding into the hyperbolic, heartbreaking.

i miss her sweet little face every day, all day. i thoroughly enjoyed my leave, perhaps too much, and coming back was nothing short of a cold and hard reality that we are slaves to our jobs, and to our lifestyles. i would love to throw it all away ( Read more... )

i’ve had a chance to ponder the inner workings of being a stay at home mom. sure i’ve got a lot more me time with a new baby and alex in day care than i would if i watched them both full time, so it’s no where near exact. but whereas last time i couldn’t wait to go back, this time it’s a lot different.

last time i wanted to go back because it was ( Read more... )

since i quit smoking oh, what, 12 years ago now (yay, for that i will never regret) my weight steadily went north, until i hit a high that was too, too much. since then i've strugged to get it off with great success, and reasoned failure. at my best calculation i gained at least 70 pounds, probably closer to 80 or more ( Read more... )

and then baby number 2 gets here. to say that went by fast is an understatement. granted i've not felt the best this time around, but i'm forcing my nesting instinct into gear, and trying to give husband some relief that he sorely needs. i took the last three days of this week off to get stuff done, and it's working out great. i got another load of ( Read more... )

alex is quite a talker, and at 2 is outtalking many of the kids in his class. sure he's small, but he's quick witted. :P give and take, right ( Read more... )

i don't think i ever mentioned we found out that this baby is a girl. :D ( Read more... )

i can't even believe it's over already and that we're back in mass. and we even came back a day later than we originally planned to. we left last tuesday night, and had a quick awesome drive thanks to husband. we do it at night with the boy, leaving after dinner and pjs so he falls asleep quickly and sleeps the whole way. makes for a tired night ( Read more... )