the change in the weather makes me aware of the things i want. new clothes, a reason to go outside. a new car because when i roll the windows down i can smell gasoline and hear all the awful noises the little runt makes. a new comforter because the one i have now (which i bought only a few months ago) is too warm and already getting torn up. there' ( Read more... )

i've been doing some existential remodeling. and by that i mean, remodeling in small materialistic ways that have a positive existential effect on me. kind of like putting on more make-up when you're in a bad mood so you feel a little prettier and thus better. i put the new comforter on the bed - its purple and green and has lots of velor, which i' ( Read more... )

i don't know whether its because i had been reading perfume, or leaving connecticut and coming back at just the right time gave me a heightened perception of things. when we arrived home friday evening - which is unusual for our trips back, since we usually come home saturday morning, but because friday had promised to be cool and useless to one's ( Read more... )

autumn is such a good time. and its almost my favorite month, and therefore almost my birthday. almost. yesterday was mom's birthday and we went to el torero, and tonight we're having enchiladas and my oreo birthday cake. we were sitting out on the porch and the sun was so strong that my skin started to turn red ( Read more... )

i have tried to write two journal entries in the past couple of days, and i always end up scrapping them. mostly because the reason why i started writing them was 1) i was bored and 2) i felt shitty. unfortunately, nothing really has changed since then other than the time of day. and with some efforts under my belt perhaps i can actually bang ( Read more... )

my journal is bright and sunny and has pink flowers now. you know why? because i am bright and sunny. my junior year in college done done done done done done done done donedone done done, and i am home in shelton eating doritos. i'm relaxed and comfortable now, and i'm hoping the next four months of warm listlessness are good ones, even though the ( Read more... )

i had a very interesting, elaborate, dark and sort of scary dream this morning. it was fantastic, but i remember very little of it, even when i had just woken up. it had something to do with some religious organization that camped itself out in the woods somewhere and the demonic sacrific of a mass of naive young adults. there was some harry potter ( Read more... )

i am a terrible procrastinator, but i'm in "must stare at my journal mode" because i finally got it to look a way that makes me so very happy. it's very pink, but what can i say i'm a sucker for black and hot pink, i didn't realize until afterwards that those were actually iamx colors, from the first album anway. but yes i've got some shit to do ( Read more... )

so i went for the paid account and i'm all spiffed up. i now have room for 41 icons, which is ridiculous, i only got 24 so far, and that's basically me uploading every icon that i like the slightest bit. the majority of them will be made by other people. i'll probably end up deleting the ones i made - they kind of grate on me to look at now. except ( Read more... )

i'm seeking to simplify. perhaps. renovation time. christina has been sleeping all goddamn day, and i have a headache from keeping the lights low. oh. i just realized something. my stomach has not been on its best behavior lately, and i'm was trying to figure out why. its because i've been getting headaches, thus i've been taking painkillers, ( Read more... )