Oh this is horrible. I'm crying. Probably because in this I identify with both Anya and Xander - Anya because she and I are quite similar, and Xander because I have similar family problems. And I understand why he did what he did.
As promised, here are icons and my first fanmix!! It's a Buffy fanmix, with one song for each canon ship (that I've seen, so, for instance, there's no Willow/Kennedy).