Dear Delaney,

My dear precious child today my heart is heavy with sorrow and grief. But I am here with your friends and family, not mourn you, but to celebrate you. I want to tell them a few things about you. I think that you would have loved this day, because everyone you love is here.

Delaney ( Read more... )

I am back once again. I am confident that I only have 1 or 2 people who read this. I write it primarily for me. I post it online because I do have a hope that one day when someone like me is seeking comfort that they find that by looking at my journey that they are not alone. When I first started my grief journey I was in search of another Man. ( Read more... )

This morning the phone rang and 4:45 am with my wife on the line. She was checking on me. She said I sounded panicked. I guess that is because I had fallen back to sleep and was actually sleeping soundly unlike previous mornings. I was happy to hear from her. Then I got to speak to my son. He was in a great mood. It was so cool to hear him happy. ( Read more... )

The phone rang at 4:45 am this morning. It was my bright spot for the day. It was my son on his way to school. I know its early to be taking calls but I really feel strongly that I need to hear his voice. I also feel that I need to be there for him. He seems to enjoy the calls as much as I do. As I have said before I define myself as a Dad first. ( Read more... )

At 4:38 am my phone rang and I got to speak to my son on his way to school. He sounded happy and it was a relief. He is my inspiration and as he puts it "fills my heart up". I live for my wife and my son. Today I strive to honor them in everything I do ( Read more... )

Another night that I didn't sleep too well. Don't get me wrong the bed is awsome, the room is comfortable, the house is amazing. My mind is just spinning. I did some e-mail and did a little work. I finally got out of bed and headed upstairs after a little while of listening to little feat running up and down the hall ( Read more... )

Woke up today at around 5:30 am. Couldn't get to sleep because I when I tried I had visions from the hospital in my head. So I decided to get up and organize my clothing and unpack. I read a little in bed too. I heard the kids get up around 8:00ish and started running around. I didn't want to interfere with the normal family morning rigtual so I ( Read more... )

Being a travel day. I didn't sleep well last night. I was up until about 1:30 packing. It usually only takes me about 30 minutes to pack. This time should have been shorter since it a smaller trip and I am staying with friends so I don't need to take as much stuff. But I did have to do laundry and found ways to stall and streach it out ( Read more... )

The thing that struck me this weekend. The part that was most overwhelming was that life just goes on. A person dies, a person grieves but life keeps on chugging. There is laundry to do, Rooms to clean and shopping to be done ( Read more... )

Today is August 13. It has been 3 months since my Baby girl Died ( Read more... )