we all go through periods of happiness and sadness, for no particular reasons. it can be related to a bunch of things, no things, subconscious things, the weather, television programming, the work week. the important thing is remembering that whatever it is that is bringing us down will go away. the things that bring us up will return. you can't ( Read more... )

krissy, stop. look at your life. back up and look at what you have, then look at what you're sad and anxious about. stop letting your fear and anxiety and loneliness interfere with all you have. because when you look at what you have, you will realize that there is nothing to be sad or anxious or lonely for. you have a near perfect family who loves ( Read more... )

deep breaths. woooooooo. WINTER SUCKS. it's cold, i get colds, i shiver and stay inside. when my feet and hands are icicles it hurts my BONES. there is nothing to look forward to in the winter, there is nothing heartwarming about strep throat and eating everything in sight and being pale and depressed. i have a general feeling of malease about me. ( Read more... )

THIS has been a monumental, unpredictable, great wonderful terrible excellent year. my junior year, that is. nothing at all has gone as planned. things have happened that i didn't see coming. and that is all just fantastic.

since september, i have been challenged in many ways. first, i was challenged to let myself love alex. to trust him, hope that ( Read more... )

how long ago did i lose the ability to feel magic, to feel excitement. i lost that as a kid. probably after santa clause, after the truth that magic doesn't exist. you know they really should let you down that hard. yea maybe santa isn't real but other magical things are real. like God, and love, and happiness. i mean maybe those things dont wrap ( Read more... )

i spent 3 years of my life paranoid. if a friend was absent from homeroom, i'd wait for the announcements expecting to hear that he or she died. i'd go into my sister's room at 4 am to check and make sure she's still alive. i'd half expect to see her hanging from the ceiling fan. or on the floor with a gun or knife or bottle of pills. i didnt speak ( Read more... )

burrrhhhhh ( Read more... )

humph. this wont be an entry about how busy i am. i think that doesn't need to be said anymore. i am collecting myself. i'm getting better ( Read more... )

AHHHHHHHHH if i wasnt in a old building with paper thin walls i'd sure like to scream really fucking loud. when i forget to catch my breath my heart throbs and i feel a sharp pain in my chest. my head is pounding my feet are swollen my mind is absolutely FULL like my vacuum that i dont have the time to empty. so full that things are just falling ( Read more... )

waaaa ( Read more... )