hmmm.. i must have last weighed myself with a whole heap of food/water weight in me because i was 63. i weighed myself this morning and the scale says 59 :S = i havent fasted at all, just restricted (not to severly thou) and done a shit load of exercise. so im guessing my real weight before would have been closer to 60/61, cos its impossible to ( Read more... )

it has been so long since ive updated, i supose i felt i no longer needed lj ( Read more... )

well james came back.... single! or so he told me, so i spent the night with him last thurs which was fucking awesome - great sex, it was what i had been waiting for for 7months since he left ( Read more... )

god this is one of those stressful weeks, filled with sacs.. fuck iwant it to be over ( Read more... )

well this week hasnt been too good.. hmmm why is it i cant get out of the binge cycle, y do i do it ( Read more... )

binge

hmm this afternoon (4-4:30) i relapsed again and had a small binge ( Read more... )

ever since he left i have allowed myself to let my appearance diminish ( Read more... )

i dont get it ( Read more... )

all the fat ( Read more... )