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all the fat
and the depression... and a binge
seriously i dont know wat im doin to my life, i hate myself and now that james is gone im completly alone.. no one else is there
i am fat and ugly and no one will want me.. but all i want is james, i cant help it
im sic of crying, i just wish the pain would go away, why did i let myself become heart broken
i just need to stop, i need to stop eating, stop thinking about james and get on with my life, and then accept him back in when he comes back
so tomoro......
wash my hair
buy diet pills
buy a canvas and actually complete one of my art pieces
go for a run
restrict to 300
dont think about james
get ready for school - finish off the rest of my hw
i'll allow myself to cry one last time b4 tomoro, and thats it, im not allowed to do it ne more, i'll just become weak
and the depression... and a binge
seriously i dont know wat im doin to my life, i hate myself and now that james is gone im completly alone.. no one else is there
i am fat and ugly and no one will want me.. but all i want is james, i cant help it
im sic of crying, i just wish the pain would go away, why did i let myself become heart broken
i just need to stop, i need to stop eating, stop thinking about james and get on with my life, and then accept him back in when he comes back
so tomoro......
wash my hair
buy diet pills
buy a canvas and actually complete one of my art pieces
go for a run
restrict to 300
dont think about james
get ready for school - finish off the rest of my hw
i'll allow myself to cry one last time b4 tomoro, and thats it, im not allowed to do it ne more, i'll just become weak