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ever since he left i have allowed myself to let my appearance diminish.
i've allowed myself to have regrowth, bad skin, and become fatter
is this the week after mourning? missing him? i am more obsessed than i thought, as he is the one who occupies my dreams at night.
But its a new month, a binge free month and new meal plans
So from this day on, i work on getting myself back to shape ( since i am at my highest weight again!) and fixing my appearance - anything to make me happier.
This morning has been good besides the ktime bar (damnit!) and the muffin ( WTF!) other than that i have stuck to my plan
My body is still too sore to go for a run which is a pain because i know thats what is not allowing any loss. Im also od'ing on those d/pills, which i find are having a laxative affect.
I'll weigh next weekend, hopefully there will be some change from sticking to my plan but right now the scales are depressing me (note to self, buy a new set, bc mine are at least 20yrs old)
MUST study for the rest of the day!
blah english sac tomoro:(
i've allowed myself to have regrowth, bad skin, and become fatter
is this the week after mourning? missing him? i am more obsessed than i thought, as he is the one who occupies my dreams at night.
But its a new month, a binge free month and new meal plans
So from this day on, i work on getting myself back to shape ( since i am at my highest weight again!) and fixing my appearance - anything to make me happier.
This morning has been good besides the ktime bar (damnit!) and the muffin ( WTF!) other than that i have stuck to my plan
My body is still too sore to go for a run which is a pain because i know thats what is not allowing any loss. Im also od'ing on those d/pills, which i find are having a laxative affect.
I'll weigh next weekend, hopefully there will be some change from sticking to my plan but right now the scales are depressing me (note to self, buy a new set, bc mine are at least 20yrs old)
MUST study for the rest of the day!
blah english sac tomoro:(