I'm not going to be able to quit, am I? I just cut again, less times, but deeper than last night. It didn't even hurt, there was no pain. Am I still alive if I can't even feel physical pain? I've been contemplating ending it all night. I can't sleep. I've gone through a whole pack of cigs in the last 12 hours ( Read more... )

I don't think anyone noticed the cuts while I was out today... then again, they were partially covered by a long sleeve. I don't get it. I used to feel no shame over them, now I do ( Read more... )

Three months. Down the drain.

Fuck...

It's a fight. I've been clean of drugs for two months. I don't struggle with that. I was lucky. I never got hooked ( Read more... )

Well, I've got the car running. Air filter was the problem. (It's always the smallest things.) Now I should be able to run to Tampa after I get my money and go see Mike and Bekah for a day or two. Honestly, I need the drive too... driving seems to make me feel better, and considering I can't find any sort of psych resources that 1) either cater ( Read more... )

I feel sick just looking at myself.

I feel pathetic. I managed to go about two months without harming, now I'm going to need to wear long sleeves to work. My arm is fucked up.