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[crystalhellion]

I'm not going to be able to quit, am I? I just cut again, less times, but deeper than last night. It didn't even hurt, there was no pain. Am I still alive if I can't even feel physical pain? I've been contemplating ending it all night. I can't sleep. I've gone through a whole pack of cigs in the last 12 hours.

What do I do? I've fucked up... I can't go inpatient down here, but what kind of options are left? I'm so scared...