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I don't think anyone noticed the cuts while I was out today... then again, they were partially covered by a long sleeve. I don't get it. I used to feel no shame over them, now I do?
Maybe it's due to my fear of having to go inpatient around here. I'm scared they'll house me with the men again if it happens. Not like anyone around here gives a damn about that fear. Then again, nothing bad's ever happened to them like it has for me. They don't know. They never will, I hope. Yes, even that cunt aunt of mine. I wouldn't wish rape on my worst enemy, after all.
I've got to figure something out, though. There's got to be some psych resource out there that I'd have access to, one that takes Medicaid. I just don't know how or where to look. If I can't find anything, and last night was any indication, the thought scares me...
Maybe it's due to my fear of having to go inpatient around here. I'm scared they'll house me with the men again if it happens. Not like anyone around here gives a damn about that fear. Then again, nothing bad's ever happened to them like it has for me. They don't know. They never will, I hope. Yes, even that cunt aunt of mine. I wouldn't wish rape on my worst enemy, after all.
I've got to figure something out, though. There's got to be some psych resource out there that I'd have access to, one that takes Medicaid. I just don't know how or where to look. If I can't find anything, and last night was any indication, the thought scares me...