wow.  what an epic last post.  was thinking about jb the other day.  wondering how he's doing.  what he's doing.  last time we hung out was the 4th of July.  fun but weird.  One of those "you look great, glad you're doing well" type hangouts.  more than one of his friends saying "you two should get back together".  I would have in a heartbeat if I ( Read more... )

Its been a month since Jordan and I broke up.  It's crazy how life can change so fast.  I think I mourned our relationship months ago .  Because right now I feel so freed up.  I have not cried once this month.  In fact, I feel better than I have in so long.  I didn't realize how drained I had become during our relationship.  For what it's worth, I ( Read more... )

you came over to spend time with me but you are sleeping in my bed.  so its almost the same as you not coming over at all.  so why did you come?  i feel almost as if it made things worse.  because now thats something else to get under my skin.  i feel like throwing a temper tantrum.  i don't want to go.  im not even sure why i keep intermittenly ( Read more... )

 i cant help but think he is the most attractive being i've ever met.  I love everything about him.  he makes me want to be a more creative, honest person.  it's been 11 months.  no fights (ever!) and I'm still head over heals. 
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i just read the majority of my entries on here.  which starts in 2001.  it is now 2010.  my eyes hurt and i have wasted a significant amount of time.  nothing really significant worth mentioning, besides the fact that i never wrote about or mentioned going to a psych ward and rehab at 17 and getting "clean"/happy.  I also did not write about ( Read more... )

first time back home  in a year!  pretty crazy its been that long.  and it feels.........pretty much the same as it always has.  J23 came home with me, we arrived last monday.  He has family here which is pretty amazing.  I don't know how i end up dating the only person I know from Philly with family in the northwest suburbs of Chicago, but it sure ( Read more... )

torched

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when i get up in the morning and put my clothes on i look in the mirror and laugh.
not because something is actually funny, but because i usually look like i'm a soccer mom or a jcrew ad.  j23 "oooh'd" at my cardigan with pearls on it this morning.  I wake him up when i roll out of bed to start my morning, and by the time he opens his eyes again ( Read more... )

Life is what happens while you’re busy making other plans.

These past two weeks have been really strange and surprising. In a completely good way. I have been in such a good mood. I can’t stop smiling. I feel like a dorky little kid about the whole thing. I have been so busy trying not to like people for the past two years that I suppose now that it ( Read more... )

1,2,3: fractured!


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