5am, You're standing there in jeans, plaid boxers showing out the top. Spatula in hand. You're making me pancakes. I tried to make you pancakes but mine ended up mushy and stuck the pan. So you made me pancakes instead. They were delicious and  I couldn't help but stare in disbelief. After all these years I still love you. After my heart broke, all ( Read more... )

I am not in love with you. I do not want you. You are an ass. For 1 day, 1 little tiny day, I saw the boy I fell in love with all those years ago. For 1 day I thought I loved you again. But I am not in love with you, I don't need you. Yes I called you a few times to talk about things that I don't have anyone else to talk to about. Things that you ( Read more... )

I just wasnted you to know that I am very excited; for your brother the 15th of February. You see, I am alone today, and I shouldn't be. But there was this buisness trip that took my beloved away from me for 2 days. Tomorrow he shall be home with me and I am so very excited. You would be too if you could see me in my glorious 20's/30's pinup glory ( Read more... )

First the Bad (so that the good can cheer you up ( Read more... )

Is Beautiful! Matt and I hiked up there tonight in the dark, it was amazing, really quiet and peaceful. plus there were these cute little mice that were in the brush gathering foodstuffs...oh and we saw a bat. The falls were steep and shallows so we got right up at the base of it and looked up, at the top there was a tree that split the falls. It ( Read more... )

*I miss trevor, or I did yesterday, but today not so much, I have my matt and he more than I could ever ask for...
*my biological clock has now become a threatening time bomb, I want to blow up and go away...
*I wish I was going to college like everyone else because It feels strange not to be going and learning stuff come september. I rather like ( Read more... )

This morning was oh my god amazing...yes soo much fun despite the icy mountain air. yes we went to the mountians again it it was spectacular and made me smile the whole day long, he is very warm and soft but yet firm and muskely. still smiling about that ( Read more... )

it doesnt feel like its real. too young. second guessing and glimpes of whats to be. a mind awoken only to become numb. I am beautiful when full of thought. the darkness and silence of the night awaken me. insense is spiritual. there is a child. it has been been so long but I dont want it. they say once you taste it its makes the desire stronger. a ( Read more... )

I wrote this a while ago but I feel like sharing today. This is the most meaningful and symbolic work yet, it is purely beautiful, Its my favorite poem

The Embrace of two lovers
Silent words flow between warm lips,
With heartbeats joined as the soft flutter
of doves wings.
Wishing so desperately to fly free throughout the world,
Within the ( Read more... )

 I FOUND A WHOLE PATCH OF 4 AND 5 LEAF CLOVERS!!!!!!!! yes that right 5!!! I took 2 5 leafs and 2 4 leafs. I now have 3 5 leaf clovers, Im giving one to Matt though cause he's special. So what if Im in love...what are YOU gonna do about it?!?!?!?! huh huh huh??? I was all depressed but then I found the 5 leaf clovers and they made me happy. I like ( Read more... )