Yeah, another emotastic post ( Read more... )

Been an interesting couple of weeks. Meetings with doctors and such, adjustments to a variety of things, and my father moved into the house. Weird in a way, but my family never really fit any kind of traditions in any way ( Read more... )

How can one have nightmares without sleep? Waking "dreams". Quite a few different things, but in particular repetition is being crippled/amputated in my gimped arm. So, I'm trying (and failing) to distract myself by thinking on the ol' Transhumanism vs. Cyberpunk question. I know I've talked here a time or two about that, but, well, I need to ( Read more... )

I'm sure it'll come as no surprise that I'm a Doctor Who fan, I am a nerd and geek afterwards. I started watching the show before I was a year old, possibly before I was even a handful of months old. Gone through quite a few Doctors (No, not "Doctor Who", that's the name of the show, not the character), and certainly quite a few actors have ( Read more... )

Set the Wayback Machine to 1991. Queen, the band, are still a thing, for now. Freddy Mercury is dying of HIV/AIDS, the huge boogeyman of his age (and mine, terrorists be damned!). The band, mostly headed by Brian May, write a song for what is obviously their last album, "The Show Must Go On", a painful item for them I am sure ( Read more... )

I'm a Grognard (French for "Old Guard") and freely admit it. Now, the original term meant old soldier, but in the gaming world it means someone who loves the older versions, or histories, of games past. For example, despite two companies having had the license for it, I still love West End Game's Star Wars D6 RPG. Another point of proof is in my ( Read more... )

I'm doing better. I'm trying very hard to grasp onto that idea. I am doing better. The new doctor I have actually cares, knows that mental health is important, and is trying. I'm getting out more. I'm trying to do things again after a bit too long of failure after failure ( Read more... )

Oh how many times have I heard this? "Get knocked down, just get back up and go again!", always in the same prissy happy tone. Well, not always, sometimes in a unemotional teaching tone.

Thing is, I don't get knocked down. I get knocked down and curb stompedHow do you stand back up on broken legs ( Read more... )

That's how my thoughts usually start these days. How many things I've lost. Mostly in my ability to do tasks ( Read more... )

So I got out and had a walkabout. Late at night, of course, but it let me get out of my own head here at home. Spent a bit that I shouldn't have, but had one of the first brainstorming sessions that I've had in quite awhile. Felt good ( Read more... )