Was out a fair bit yesterday. Lunch, dinner, movie (Ghostbusters), so on. Things tried to hurt me, but I still stayed out.

Exhausted now. But the curse didn't hit. That's the important part.

And, as always, I wonder if the curse will rear its ugly head again, worse this time than before because it has not been around the last couple of years. Either way, getting older, and condition still isn't improving ( Read more... )

How can one have nightmares without sleep? Waking "dreams". Quite a few different things, but in particular repetition is being crippled/amputated in my gimped arm. So, I'm trying (and failing) to distract myself by thinking on the ol' Transhumanism vs. Cyberpunk question. I know I've talked here a time or two about that, but, well, I need to ( Read more... )

I'm a Grognard (French for "Old Guard") and freely admit it. Now, the original term meant old soldier, but in the gaming world it means someone who loves the older versions, or histories, of games past. For example, despite two companies having had the license for it, I still love West End Game's Star Wars D6 RPG. Another point of proof is in my ( Read more... )

I'm doing better. I'm trying very hard to grasp onto that idea. I am doing better. The new doctor I have actually cares, knows that mental health is important, and is trying. I'm getting out more. I'm trying to do things again after a bit too long of failure after failure ( Read more... )

Just before Christmas, the latest Shadowrun book to come out where I get an author's credit is here!

http://rpg.drivethrustuff.com/product/141788

Buy, read, enjoy!

Oh how many times have I heard this? "Get knocked down, just get back up and go again!", always in the same prissy happy tone. Well, not always, sometimes in a unemotional teaching tone.

Thing is, I don't get knocked down. I get knocked down and curb stompedHow do you stand back up on broken legs ( Read more... )

That's how my thoughts usually start these days. How many things I've lost. Mostly in my ability to do tasks ( Read more... )

Been getting out with a bit more consistency. On an upswing, after having had another bout of, well, everything coming at me at once ( Read more... )

I used to be so much more. I used to do things. I used to be useful. I hate to feel this way. I hate being tired all the time. And worse ( Read more... )