It seems as though the closer I get to a person, the farther away I feel...even my mother makes me feel that way...is it me, is it her? What ever it is, I want it to stop. Is it because I feel the only closeness I can feel to someone is when I am trying to make them happy by appeasing them? My mother seems to have a closeness with my sister at ( Read more... )

I can't even begin to tell you how much I am looking forward to my new life...my life after Stephen...my life after my parents, my life after my sister, my life after my entire known world...Steve quickly became a part of my life...when I look back I see myself bringing him towards me...I enitiated our coming together...I loved him very much...I ( Read more... )

Tomorrow I embark on a new journey...a Loan Officer or a Loan Originator...the key word being a loan...I feel indifferent...not scared but not too confident. Steve called me on Friday. I have been waiting, not by the phone, but he has been on my mind, for him to call again. It is Sunday and he hasn't. I was here when he called, however I did not ( Read more... )

Yesterday I saw a rainbow. Today I saw a wild owl. I wish I had a camera, I would go out and take its picture. This bird is beautiful...Huge monsterous yellow eyes and his coloring was blue I think...He is sitting outside in the Holly Bush in front of a condominium unit next to my building...He's just sitting there...I wasn't sure if he would ( Read more... )

I just wanted to let everyone know how gratefull I am for being given the opportunity to originate Loans...I don't think anyone really knows how much this means to me...I started out in the mortgage business as a receptionist..I saw WKRP in Cinncinati and know that the receptionist isn't really respected. Well, I always felt that I was worth ( Read more... )

Well, so far everything seems to be going as God has planned it...I only say that because I believe that one of the plans God has for us is to succeed. I joined a 12 step group about 4 years ago after going off the beaten track a few times. Not the one for alcohol recovery, although now, I probably could use that group : )LOL! But for friends and ( Read more... )

Just like when you are sick with the flu...you get really sick before your body realizes that it doesn't have to stay sick, especially if you take the medicine. The sun is coming out...good thing because I have 2 interviews tomorrow. I was on my way to one when all of a sudden, my transmission decided not to switch gears on me. Luckly for me, my ( Read more... )

I was trying to manuver about this website and forgot all about the chocolate chippies I was making...I didn't even here the timer go off. It is raining outside and my friend is having a hard time. I learned back in school (this was way back in the 90's and I am talking college here so there was a lot of open mindedness)that in our minds we ( Read more... )

Well, it is raining here in Alpharetta, GA. I am bummed because I have to find another avenue to practice my carrer. I have faith though and prospects so things aren't so bad, but let's be real...It really suxs to get fired even if you wanted to leave. I remain hopefull though. I am starting over and what a great time to do it. A lot has ( Read more... )