It has to get worse before it can get better...
Just like when you are sick with the flu...you get really sick before your body realizes that it doesn't have to stay sick, especially if you take the medicine. The sun is coming out...good thing because I have 2 interviews tomorrow. I was on my way to one when all of a sudden, my transmission decided not to switch gears on me. Luckly for me, my family is able to help me...I hate relying on them for things, but they are all I have. I am grateful, don't get me wrong...I just feel so needy. It really isn't a bad feeling...in fact it feels more comfortable than thinking I have to do everything on my own...now that is uncomfortable. I reschedule my interview for tomorrow...Josh seemed to be pretty understanding and my Dad, well he is awesome...I am just now realizing just how awesome. I won't ever give as much away as I did to Steve, unless of course I can afford it. Maybe one day I will talk about how much I lost, right now I am okay with it...a little worried that he won't take care of what I gave him, but it is not my responsibility any longer. I really feel you have to go through some bad apples before you know who you or your prince really is...My Dad just called...he is going to take care of his daughter...He never approved of Steve, but he always accepted it...The Sun is starting to show.