I just put on the saddest movie I could possibly find and sobbed like a baby for two full hours.

Man I needed that.

But now... but now my head is killing me...

My grandfather's in the hospital. He's dying. The doctor's say he isn't going to last the week.

Time to let another old man die, I guess.

I haven't posted a serious entry in this journal for nearly two weeks now, so I thought it high time to do something about it. Lately, or ever since it hit August the tenth I haven't really felt like doing much except for the essentials of sleep, work and gym. I've been so depressed, weepy late at night, lethargic in the evenings, and emotionally ( Read more... )

One year ago I tonight I was in the US and I was happy, not because I was in the US, but you know. All my friends should know what I'm talking about.

Please excuse me while I go cry for a few hours.

Oh, and I finished a Siren's Way chapter. Go and enjoy that too.

Hmm, I was supposed to go to bed early tonight and put this awful feeling behind me, but then I wound up watching Black Adder episodes for three hours which did an okay job of numbing the pain. It's not like waking up in the morning will make everything seem better and be easier to work with, but sleep and all that is like an emergency release ( Read more... )

Right now I'm not actually typing on the computer that has internet access. That computer is right now being used by my sister to play Maple Story, but all of a sudden I had an urge to write a LJ entry so here I am, mashing away on my typewriter-slash-paperweight. I've had lots of stuff on my mind lately and I've been using my livejournal less and ( Read more... )

Ah... I got the blues real bad. The month is ending, the week is over, I'm sad and my freaking feet are cold. This is how I usually deem that autumn has begun. But honestly today was the most beautiful day I have seen for years I think. The sky was clear, the air was fresh and warm and birds were flying and chirping happily. It's the sort of day ( Read more... )

I felt terrible most of the day. Not sick terrible, just the kind that makes you wonder why the hell you even bother. It didn't let up at all, even when I was talking with my friends, so I thought the only thing for it was to spend some time alone until I got over this. It must be one of those automatic mechanisms, just like when a sick dog crawls ( Read more... )

Things seem to function all fuzzily when you're running on zero hours of sleep. Last night was terrible, there was a screaming argument that lasted all night long and I had to stay up until sunrise in order to make sure that nobody killed anybody else.

First dad's football team lost their game. Why do people act so aggravatingly crazy on account ( Read more... )

Oh boy, I've been such a nervous wreck for the past three days, depression's settled down on me like a cloud. I think its a mixture of the cold weather, PMS, some natural stress and frustration and how could I forget, regular freaking verbal abuse. I really need THAT like a kick in the face ( Read more... )