I'm still alive.
I haven't posted a serious entry in this journal for nearly two weeks now, so I thought it high time to do something about it. Lately, or ever since it hit August the tenth I haven't really felt like doing much except for the essentials of sleep, work and gym. I've been so depressed, weepy late at night, lethargic in the evenings, and emotionally eating all throughout the day. I don't know how to stop it, gym is the only thing stopping me from gaining a zillion pounds. I just don't know what to do.
I'm playing a bit of Phantasy Star Universe while I'm typing this, giving my little force PP breaks between paragraphs. I'm also trying to level his buffing spells while the seconds tick by too. The game isn't as fun without Matthew around to play with me but at least the community is nice and friendly and I can chat with them instead.
I finally gave Chris the fifty dollar deposit for the paint ball game next month. I'm really afraid I won't be in shape for the game, I mean, I'm way over ten pounds heavier than I was during the last game. Granted, I've been strength training a lot but is that enough? Wouldn't I be a bigger target?
I don't feel like myself anymore, not the Adelaide I used to be back in school. I've had a lot of worries caring about my family and caring for the old lady at work that I guess I've stopped feeling like, well, me. I never used to care this much about anything, let alone everything, and the only way for something to hurt you is if you care about it.
At least Ninja is doing well.
I'm playing a bit of Phantasy Star Universe while I'm typing this, giving my little force PP breaks between paragraphs. I'm also trying to level his buffing spells while the seconds tick by too. The game isn't as fun without Matthew around to play with me but at least the community is nice and friendly and I can chat with them instead.
I finally gave Chris the fifty dollar deposit for the paint ball game next month. I'm really afraid I won't be in shape for the game, I mean, I'm way over ten pounds heavier than I was during the last game. Granted, I've been strength training a lot but is that enough? Wouldn't I be a bigger target?
I don't feel like myself anymore, not the Adelaide I used to be back in school. I've had a lot of worries caring about my family and caring for the old lady at work that I guess I've stopped feeling like, well, me. I never used to care this much about anything, let alone everything, and the only way for something to hurt you is if you care about it.
At least Ninja is doing well.