Every time I find a job that makes me happy or seems to fit a criteria I need such as paying well or being simple or enjoyable something happens. Like now... I'm terrified because of the fact that my freaking hours are nearly half of what they should be for this next pay check... The problem is that now that I work as a host in a resturante they ( Read more... )

One year and no one cares except for me. I cant help but feel like I am always the one to ruin things because I am the only one who really gives a damn. I try to call my boyfriend to make sure if we are going to be on for Tuesday since he worked a double today on our true 1 year anniversary. Things have been very strained since apparently the ( Read more... )

I know that sex isnt everything... I know myself though and I feel like when the sex dies down than the relationship is dead... I dont want to come off as needy but I have almost next to no clue about how to be sexy. I just dont.... I feel like either I am sexy or I'm not... There isnt really a middle ground... The longer sex is neglected in a ( Read more... )

I wish I had never had sex then it wouldnt be this huge deal. I hate it. I hate wanting it and desiring it. Having sex has never brought me anything good ever. It makes me obsessive and clingy. Its driven away more men from me than I can count because I want to have sex and then they dont and then I interpret that as being unattractive or ( Read more... )

I wish I could get out of these cycles of being in relationships where the guy do esnt seem to fucking care even a little bit. If your with someone for 6 months dont you consider that a long time? Okay maybe not a long time but at least a lengthy time??! The only thing more fucked up than forgetting something like that which is easy to understand ( Read more... )

Time management of course is going to be one of the biggest things an adult struggles with but its still annoying to have to think about because for example I just got done DMing a game of shadow-run and while I enjoyed that it still took away time from other things I probably should be doing before I concentrate on that... Example I have a test ( Read more... )

I try really hard to try and keep my friends involved in whats going on in my life and let them know I care about them and call them on a semi-regular basis. To bad I don't get the same courtesy. Honestly I'm not stupid I know that people grow apart and become disassociated from one another its natural in fact out of sight out of mind is ( Read more... )

I feel like a really big fucking moron I spent most of my night waiting for my boyfriend to call me so we could spend time together... He is going to a party tomorrow that he didnt bother to try and get me invited to when I make sure to invite him to almost anything I do... We've been dating for 3 months and I am pretty sure he has no idea how long ( Read more... )

With what should have been one of the most frustrating and infuriating nights I've had in a long ass time it turned out to be one of the most romantic. My friends and I were getting ready to go out to Dave and Busters for round two of trying to celebrate my friend Touray's birthday. As we were driving from Potbelly's my belly full of roast beef my ( Read more... )

Its weird I shouldnt feel badly because things are going better than ever... I have a job thats paying me a really good salary... I'm making new friends... School is going well as can be expected with such a heavy course load.... But I cant help but feel kind of lonely... With my boyfriend all the way at Pen State I'm forced to try and be loyal to ( Read more... )