Ugh... regrets and guilt... I hate them and have much of each today!  Went out last night and got drunk, then the next thing I knew I was too drunk and tired to communicate with people trying to talk to me, so this morning I've been thinking a lot, "What's the point?!"  I go out, get drunk, loosen up and hope to make some new friends, but then it ( Read more... )

"But if no one calls and I don't speak all day, do I disappear?"
-- Everything But The Girl, "Single" from Walking Wounded

So who else around here is single and lives alone? I've only dated once in my life and that was just odd, my moods were very destructive to the relationship... I've been forcing myself to be more social lately, even if it means ( Read more... )

I had a good time last night, I'm having a bad day today as a result, paranoid, nervous, chest pains, worried... and I've been rambling about angels and devils!

I have never been the type to sleep... and sleep, and sleep, and sleep... but that seems to be what I've become, a sleeper. For the 2nd time this week I have slept 12 hours or more. I slept until nearly noon today, and got out of bed feeling like I'd been beaten with a stick. Ugh.

I take Zyprexa, but my pdoc keeps pointing out that I've been on ( Read more... )

so i havent been sleeping at night, been on the computer all night chatting with strange men. its my specialty. then i sleep all day. i do manage to get up to make my son's lunch and get him off the school but 9 out 10 times he comes home to me sleeping. monday.  i saw the dr. she said sounds like we might be on the verge of a manic attack. so she ( Read more... )

well today started out ok and then i was able to take about an hour nap and it got better then my husband got online and he was accusing me of things i didn't do and i started downhill ( Read more... )