i miss the fuck out of him..its all ive been thinking about lately

So it's been a really long time since i've been on this thing. I didn't really know people still update but they do and that excites me alot. I really miss old friends and how shit used to be. I know i know, i say that alot but this time i really really mean it. I have been happy lately for the most part and shit is going good i just really miss ( Read more... )

It seems like when im sad or have something on my mind i always do this. I speak my mind to this fucking journal that everyone reads. Im fucking hurting, bad..Why do i keep doing this to myself. Feeling like i need this certain someone in my life when it is just hurting me. Even though i do love him i dont know if any love is worth this pain. Is it ( Read more... )

What i've been feeling lately is really making me depressed. I had all these "close" friends and all of a sudden i feel like i have no one. I honestly cannot remember the last time some one called me just to see how i was doing. Yeah you go to school, so what..that has never stopped anyone before. Just as i was begininning to think i was fitting in ( Read more... )

i was just reading old post and old pictures
its sad how close we all used to be?
now we're lucky if we see eachother at a party
im sad
lets hang out and get drunk
doo beerrrr bongs

I haven't up dated my LJ in a very long time and i think it is about time i do some venting. Work pissed me the fuck off today. How are you going to be the "boss" when you can't even tell your employee's what not to do. If you are not happy with something they are doing then maybe you shouldn't be doing it either. But the least you could do is ( Read more... )

that i could sleep peacefully for just this one night. i dont want to cough and wake up every hour..i wish this cough medicine would just make me pass out..wtfffff

Not much of anything lately just working, Alot. I might be quiting my job at Theo's soon. I really hate working on the weekeneds and it is a hastle getting there and back every weekend. I suck at school and going to school and anything that has to do with school. I need to start doing better. I procrastinate wayyy too much! My gma's in town and im ( Read more... )

I feel so grown up lately. I am now working two jobs..i work six days a week and go to school two days a week. I think this is a good oppertunity for me. I really like working with my sister it's fun having my own desk and everything. Going to see my brother was really upsetting. I miss him already. Everytime i walk into his room i kinda get sad. I ( Read more... )

Last night could have very well been the greatest night of my life..After pushing my way through the crowd i finally get to the VERY front of the stage..RIGHT in front of him..When i think things couldn't possibly get any better they do. I yell his name and he responds through the mic..WTF? Was that real!!?? Did we hold hands..Did me and a billion ( Read more... )