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k, i'm really going to stop trying now. he's in love with his bitchy gf, totally wrapped up. BLAH. swimming's going pretty good? well i'm swimming like crazy- 11 times a week now. i'm going for the school records in the 200 free and the 100 fly on tuesday. apache junction = NO ELEVATION BABY! fuck yeah! i'm totally ready for a new experience and ( Read more... )

i went to san diego kinda this weekend
it sucked
i heard that song of his and hers
it gave me chills and i wanted to cry
he needs to rid of her
she's ruining his purity
but if he's happy, who am i to ask to change that?

TOTALLY still head over heels for him. TOTALLY ( Read more... )

AH:GSHDf my hopes are so damn high and i'm so frustrated because i can't tell that certain boy whom i have had my eye on for the past i don't know 15 months that i ADORE him! i saw him today, and i could hardly even look at him! KELLY AND LEE don't say his name in a comment. oh so close yet so far away. i wish i could just be like "-insert name ( Read more... )

k well, school starts in less than two weeks, and i'm so not ready for life for some reason, things are catching up with me, like not being as prepared as i would have liked to, or perhaps not being as informed... i had to make a horrible decision this past thursday, between orchestra and calculus ap. i had to go with calculus, but this means i won ( Read more... )

k, well, tonight could have been better, it had every potential in the world... but some people aren't as willing to do some of the same things for me that i am, or that i even have done for them, at least i thought they were, but selfishness got in the way, it could have been good, great, something unexpected happened, and i totally could have had ( Read more... )

so i have a consistant living arrangment as of now. steve and donna bought our house in prescott since we're building one next door, and they had some extra room in their house, so i get to stay! they're way cool, and their house is absolutely gorgeous. swimming is getting better, i just need to eat more pasta for it to feel better, cause it ( Read more... )

k, things with brandon are over, i cut them off on thursday. i'm feeling kind of lonely now, i miss my sisters a lot. lee's stuck being harassed in florida, i want her to come home, kelly's in georgia, a kind of weird situation- mumsy and daddy are in prescott, going to the rodeos and parades and celebrations that the town i'm in has nothing to do ( Read more... )

it's been awhile, um, well, so many things are different, i feel really torn on a lot of my decisions lately, and i'm just buying time hoping for a sign from someone, and hoping for ease, but lately i've been feeling like, i don't know, alone. i miss my coach way much, and i hope he doesn't feel like i abandoned him or something, cause really, that ( Read more... )