it's 4 am and the alarm clocks set for 5...
k, things with brandon are over, i cut them off on thursday. i'm feeling kind of lonely now, i miss my sisters a lot. lee's stuck being harassed in florida, i want her to come home, kelly's in georgia, a kind of weird situation- mumsy and daddy are in prescott, going to the rodeos and parades and celebrations that the town i'm in has nothing to do with. it's weird, kind of being on my own, i don't know, i'm sleeping at like a different place every night, i just keep my suitcase with me. i miss swimming for prescott, hate sac, but i'll get through it i guess, i miss the love of a boy, even though i've never felt it. i work a lot more than i used to, i finally got my bass lessons going. i still need to study for the SATs, i need to get cleared by the ncaa clearing house, but can't do that til i have my scores- i'm an idiot. WHY DID I WAIT?! i don't know, i am tired and all i ever do now is swim eat and sleep. except, actually alyssa and i went to a GREAT show on friday, scary kids scaring kids, change of pace, and my darling murder were all spectacular. sweat fest it was, but that didn't hinder it at all. i'm really hungry, it's hard to afford food and gas. anyways, yeah, i'm just feeling awkward, i miss a lot of things, but i don't know to what degree.