It's ridiculous how hard it is, 50% of the time, to understand and appreciate what I have with John. I wish I could concrete it in my mind. I constantly look for ways to discredit everything he does that would otherwise impress or please me. It's become more apparent to me lately and I've started to call myself out on the absurdity of it all - I ( Read more... )

My job is miserable. John was trying to explain to me last night that my mother is an extremely abusive boss. I know. I feel like there's nothing I can do about it and that I'm stuck. Discussing it and even thinking too negatively about it kept bringing to mind the idea of betrayal, like I was betraying them by even thinking certain things. That's ( Read more... )