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superhero_grrl in a_weak_moment

stumbling into the belly of the beast

Feb 11, 2005 11:47

I set the phone down on the cradle, my heart felt so heavy. I missed her, like I never thought I would. Or at least I tried to pretend like I wouldn’t. But I did, I missed everyone ( Read more... )

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mr_angel February 16 2005, 04:54:36 UTC

I sat in my office, just staring at the phone with the occasional glance up at the door. I had this strange feeling that someone like Lilah, Lindsey, or hell even Holland Manners would stroll into my office at any given minute.

Yes, this was my office now. Looking at the phone again, I sighed. How was I exactly supposed to answer that thing? 'Hi, this is Angel of Angel Investi-'.. no. 'Hi, this is Angel, CEO of Hell In-'.. no. 'Hi, this is Angel, CEO of Wolfram and Ha-'.. no I didn't want to answer it like that either. I think that for now, I'd just stick with 'Hi, this is Angel.'

Shaking my head, I stood up from the desk and paced the room for a moment then just decided that I needed to get out of this room for a little while. Maybe I could see if anyone else was here yet. Or who knows, maybe I just needed to get out of this firm. But no, I couldn't do that. I took the deal.. the deal to put Connor, my son, into a normal family with nothing but his college applications or who to date to worry about right now.

Sure, I'd ( ... )

superhero_grrl February 16 2005, 05:09:10 UTC

I was getting antsy. Nervous even, just being in this building put me on edge. Its probably because I know all kinds of evil things are lurking between the walls.

And Angel was here? How could he run this place. I had this sick feeling in the pit of my stomach that he had to have gone evil. But if he had wouldn't I have heard about it? From Wes or someone? I was seriously lacking in the info and I hated it. Particularly when it came to Angel. He was hard enough to figure out when you knew what was up.

I was idly tracing the pattern on the large desk when I heard a familiar voice.

"Buffy?"

I turned around slowly and saw him, standing there looking, well besides surprised to see me he looked kind of miserable. I could tell this was not Angelus, but none the less the running evil inc? Still not great on my radar.

I put on a fake smile.

"So I must have beheaded one of your clients cause this superbly dressed man came up to me and gave me a card with this place and a time on it."

I bit my lip looking at him.

"Uh, surprise?"

mr_angel February 16 2005, 14:43:04 UTC

As I said her name, she turned around and looked at me. It was one of those looks that I wasn't sure what it exactly meant. I guess that by her being here she knew that we'd taken over the firm.. wonder what she thought about that exactly.

"So I must have beheaded one of your clients cause this superbly dressed man came up to me and gave me a card with this place and a time on it."

Hearing that almost made me want to yell 'go team', but I decided that it wasn't exactly the right time for that. Then again when exactly would it be the right time for me to yell out anything like that? I could care less about some of the 'clients' that represent here and if I could get away with killing half of them? - no problem in my book.

Her smile didn't exactly seem genuine, but I guess that was understandable. The former 'let's help the helpless' was now.. 'let's help the.. soulless'?

"Uh, surprise?"I raised a brow and took a couple steps over towards her. I tried a smile to see if it would help the situation any and looked at her. "Yeah ( ... )

superhero_grrl February 16 2005, 18:38:10 UTC

"A client, huh? Well, unless it happened to be a horned, green demon wearing a snazzy suit. Then I really don't have a problem with it."

Snazzy? Man I was uber confused, not like he didn't confuse me back when we were actually together let alone now when the last time I saw him I kinda attacked him with the smoochies then split a preacher in two.

Of course if I'd seen him in any other capacity that evil inc it's quite possible I'd have jumped him again, because seeing Angel always made me loose all capacity for thought.

I watched him. He was definately looking like he wanted to jump out of his own skin. Then a aptly horned demon walked passed us and I just wanted to burst out laughing, this situation was so far beyond halarious.

"You wanna come into my, uh.. office?"I nodded and he led the way into a very lavishly decorated office. I was impressed, it was very ... Angely, with the nice art and simplicity. I had to say it made me feel loads more comfortable than the lobby of this place ( ... )

Thread 8

mr_angel February 21 2005, 05:30:34 UTC

"Son? How? I mean, who did you ... Why ... How?"

I glanced down to the floor. Shouldn't I have expected an response from her like this? This was Buffy after all. If anyone had the right to be shocked, she did.

Sighing, I looked at her. I wasn't even sure if she believed me now, much less how the rest of the 'story' would go. The fact that I had a son was probably the easy part. Well, for me it was at least.

And the fact that Connor was mine and Darla's son? I'd killed Dalra right in front of Buffy. Then again, when did anyone who died stay dead? Neither of us sure have.

"I believe you, I just ... need a bit more explaination. Not that you have to cause you don't, you can leave it at that and I can stay in the dark."I nodded. "No, it's alright. I should have told you a long time ago. Connor was.." I looked at her. "Darla was his mother." I even wondered now if she'd remember Darla. That night had been.. well more than seven years ago ( ... )

superhero_grrl February 21 2005, 23:47:32 UTC

I shook my head. "No, it's not like ..." I sighed. "If you had told me I wouldn't know now anyway right?"

"Darla was his mother."

I gulped. Darla, Darla who was the one woman in the world who'd had more of him than I had even before this son thing? The woman I compaired myself to mercilessly attempting to figure out what he wanted when I was 16?

Oh God, It couldn't have been like ... I don't know anyone else? Well not Cordelia, but anyone but them?

"Oh. Darla wait ..."

"Wolfram and Hart brought her back three years ago, but as human. They wanted to use her to get to me.. make me become Angelus again and then turn her. Things didn't exactly work out the way they'd planned, so they brought Drusilla in to turn her back. Things happened.. and then there was Connor."They wanted Darla to give him perfect happiness? I felt my heart sink, but his explination, did that mean she didn't I mean if there's a son obviously there was ... God, Why did I feel so jealous, it's not like I hadn't moved on. Ok so I really hadn't moved on, but I had ( ... )

mr_angel February 22 2005, 05:09:09 UTC

"Oh. Darla wait ..."

I looked at her. I guess she did remember Darla. She isn't exactly an easy pers-.. vampire to forget. The expression on her face started to change as I spoke, and it wasn't one that I ever liked to see her show.

"I'm sorry, that must have been ... So they don't even know the real reason they are here either?"

Looking at her, I just shook my head. If they found out things would never be the same.. again. I thought of Wes. Things had already gotten almost the way they had been before all of the last two years happened. I'd never be able to act the same around him, but at least I didn't think of it every time I saw him as I used to.

The terrible thought of what ifs began to run through my head. What if Wesley hadn't have left with Connor that night? Would I have a two year old to worry about instead of a law firm? The thought made me sick.

"Thank you for trusting me, I didn't mean to ... force you to tell me, if that's ... I mean ..."I nodded then shook my head. "No, you didn't force me to tell you. ( ... )

superhero_grrl February 22 2005, 05:51:46 UTC

"No, you didn't force me to tell you. I think I wanted to tell you. I couldn't have you thinking I did this just to have the power of being head of the firm."

I looked up.

"I knew it wasn't about power, I just couldn't figure out what it was about. I do know you, well ... I did and ..."

I'd gone on and on.

I was so close to the door I could have run out of there before he said anything. I was still fast.

"No, Buffy, wait."

I stopped. How could I not stop? This was Angel, it always came to Angel. Sometimes I hated it, but most of the time I just accepted it. I turned and looked at him but didn't move.

"It's alright. Stay."

I bit my lip and took a step forward.

"I just, I didn't mean to you know go there, it's not ... the time, so far from the time or the place. And I always do that? Take stuff and make it about me and I didn't want to do it with you, of all people I didn't want to be that girl anymore."

I felt my insides threaten to tremble, but I held firm.

"Things are just so.. complicated. Except for a couple years ( ... )

Thread 18

mr_angel March 10 2005, 21:58:05 UTC

"You'll figure it out Angel. I know you will; sometimes it takes other people's trust and faith to make you realize that you really can do it, even if you've been looking for answers somewhere else you just can finally say ok. They trust me so I need to trust myself."

Looking at her, I nodded. I didn't need or want anyone's sympathy, but the fact that she understood and wasn't giving me grief over this whole thing made me feel better about all this. It wasn't ever going to be easy exactly, but it would make it easier to live with.

"Trusting myself isn't exactly something I'd call my best quality. I doubt that trusing one's self is easy for anyone. But, I know that eventually things will get better. Not easy, because I wouldn't want that. If things around here ever start to get easy for me, well.. I give you permission to stake me."

I smiled a little.

"So change it, do something to make sure they know your there for them, I mean if you would feel better knowing they are alright or at least dealing its pretty safe to assume ( ... )

superhero_grrl March 11 2005, 02:31:49 UTC

"Trusting myself isn't exactly something I'd call my best quality. I doubt that trusing one's self is easy for anyone. But, I know that eventually things will get better. Not easy, because I wouldn't want that. If things around here ever start to get easy for me, well.. I give you permission to stake me."

I didn't want permission to stake him, I mean I've pushed a sword through his chest before, I wasn't looking for another heartbreaking 'kill angel' scene.

"Well, sometimes you just gotta deal and move on you know? I think you'll get to a point where you're alright, not great because yeah badness for great or perfect right?"

I gave him a weak smile. God why did I even bother taking? I just jumbled everything up.

"Sounds like a good idea. I just hope they don't all think I've lost my mind by taking over this place. I'm pretty sure there are a few doubts going around."I gave him a look, "Ok, so maybe they have some doubts, but didn't they all agree to this too? I mean it wasn't just you, you aren't forcing them to be here are you ( ... )