"i don't want this feeling to go away, please don't go away"
Man alive, Casey left and I miss him already. I mean, he had to leave because we both have stuff to do to prepare for the new school year, we have things to get done but still, I really wanna skip this next (horrible!) week of work and spend more time with him before NSO eats my life away. I am excited about it, but it's kind of exhausting and i'm wondering how i will ever accrue the required amount of energy... ANYWAY I was sad to let him leave, since we've spent like every waking minute together for the last 10 straight days. We've never had that much time together.
We're getting more comfortable around each other - ridiculously comfortable. Which is super great because I loved the day where we spent the entire day in pajamas and i didn't even like wear makeup (well perhaps a TINY bit) and we had a total blast relaxing and watching episodes of Buffy and I didn't feel like I needed to look like a supermodel 24/7 to impress him. But at the same time, we're starting to see sides of each other we normally wouldn't show one another (because we're trying to make a good impression). You can't hide for 10 days straight after a year and a half of dating, and so he saw emotional-baby-frustrated-Amy (the one who forgets things are supposed to be fun not stressful, and that sometimes plans don't work out right, and that's ok!!!), and I saw quiet-irritable-confusing-Casey. Yet we still love each other so it's all good. All in all, getting more and more comfortable has its ups and downs. I get to act like more of a ridiculous insane silly person and he doens't think i'm retarded (and he can do the same) and we can lounge around and not freak out if we're doing everything perfectly to impress the other person, but we're really getting to know ALL of each other, even the not-so-great sides of one another. "I'm rambling."
Anyway...
WEDNESDAY:
We slept in til like, noon. It was fabulous. We played a little more of the Buffy Board game (i'm such a baby, and he's so obsessed) that we'd started the night before, and went out to Le Peep together - mmm Cinnamonster! That was a good decision. Casey agreed that my Apple juice looks yucky, but tastes great. we ended up finishing our Buffy board game a little later, and I won as the Master. He told me i'm no longer allowed to complain about how much I suck at strategy games - even though i do.
Then we came back and packed for camping. we got our tent, my dad seemed uneasy that it was just the two of us going, and i tried not to pout when my mom said my sister and her friend might go too. But they just came up for S'mores for a little while. We went to king soopers and got stuff like root beer (the drink of choice on this trip!) and reese's cups for "the Casey special" - the reese's s'more. We also got a firelog. Shhh... we suck as real campers...
But anyway we drove up to Frisco, and that is just a beautiful area. Our campsite was RIGHT on the lake (wooh Peak One 46!), which was nice, and our neighbors seemed like nice people, so i wan't afraid of them being axe murderers. though we did pass one campsite full of Texans, inhabited by "cletis and bobbi" which i tried not to laugh at - I was unsuccessful. Anyway when we got there we took a walk around the lake, or part of it anyway, and frankly, it was JUST what we needed. I forget that the greatest thing to him is just a nice long walk and talk session. We take lots of walks - why should a CO vacation be any different? But yeah, it was like, just the thing to kickstart our camping. We sat on a nice rock by the beautiful lake, and discussed snake holes - Casey wanted to punch a snake in the face if it came for us. haha. We also carried a large load of firewood back with us. I felt SOO GOOD while we were camping, like all of the weirdness and confusion between us melted away and we were just totally great again. we dorked around with the ripped out tree stump, taking pictures of it as if we were the ones ripping it out of the ground, and it was pretty silly.
Eventually we started our fire and roasted a reese's s'more, which sorta tasted like firelog to me - ew. But we also made hot dogs (i dropped my first in the fire, and my third had a tiny bit of dirt on it... hehe) and those tasted mighty fine. I can't believe Casey's not into ketchup. We also set up the tent and sleeping bags, and then my family came and brought us the yoga mats to put under our sleeping bags. we all made s'mores together and chatted and laughted about mom's stupid childhood games like machine gunner, poseidon adventure, and dead preist. Casey got along well with my family, (I got a little nervous leaving him alone with 'the elders' - as sammie calls them - when i took the girls to the bathroom). Yes, there's a bathroom there, (and it smelled nice because they hung dryer sheets from the little hooks in the stalls - clever!) but the Lake Dillon area with the super structured camping is one of the few counties left in colorado allowing campfires. so, that's where we went.
It was pretty FREEZING at night but nice and cozy in our tent, even when it rained all night, thanks to our sleeping bag maximum warmth arrangement - genius. though my body got cold whenever it was exposed to air. stupid air. haha. it was HOT in there in the morning though - sun shining, annoying bird chirping....
THURSDAY:
Woke up, made PBJs, well, Casey made a peanut butter and jelly and Reese's s'more sandwich (reeses? for breakfast?! haha), and while I got ready for the day and was vain and put makeup on even in the woods, Casey fed a soggy piece of hershey bar to a chipmunk. He was incredibly delighted and named him "Chockie the Chocoholic Chipmunk" and loved feeding the cute little thing. Joey would have eaten him; I'm glad we didn't bring the dogs. Anyway after the Chockie fun we took another long walk (I LOVE WALKING WITH HIM!) and we talked about, idk, us, and kempo, and stuff. T'was nice. we almost got lost, but Casey found the trail again. We got back and took down the tent and then had to make a decision - Garden of the Gods, a hike in Frisco, or Alpine Slides in Breckenridge?
Duh, ALPINE SLIDES!!!! I had to ask twice and got a little stressed out trying to find the alpine slides cause i didn't know where i was headed. i've not been to Breckenridge in years. Anyway we got to them on Peak 8 eventually and they were a little pricy ($18 for two rides) but SOOO worth it. This is no ordinary slide my friend, oh no. you have to take a 7 minute chairlift ride to the top of a 9,970 foot mountain (peak 8). The slide is appoximately 4,000 feet long with a vertical rise of 711 feet. MAN ALIVE it's fun! Casey said he would have gone NUTS for it as a kid. I went to get my camera after the first ride so we could photo document our fun. we went down the blue run and then the black. During the first ride Casey picked me a flower as he was accellerating down the mountainside - *smile. I realized later that I had made Dad's "woohoo!" ski noise while i was riding down. Oh dear. Casey kept calling me a slow poke and making fun of me. But I went pretty fast! We had perfect timing too because they closed the ride RIGHT after we got done with our second run because it started to rain - perfect for us! We left happy and exhilarated, and had lunch in Frisco at Wendy's. DID you know Wendy's has BREAKFASTS now?!! WEIRD! i was totally obsessed with this anomaly. Casey got the new vanilla frosty. i'm not sure i support this yet...
we got back and were very tired. we decided that we were too tired to go to kempo if we wanted to enjoy dancing at all. It was a hard decision because I knew how excited he'd been about kempo beforehand, but we would have been too dead. I hope we didn't disappoint Kyle at all by not going. Casey didn't seem too bummed about it at all actually. Instead he taught me to play chess. I was excited at first, because the last time i tried to learn to play chess i was way more interested in the Van Hall's cowboy and indian chess set than i was steven's explanation. I did kinda want to learn though. i was SUPER impressed that Casey actually knows so much about chess - that's like a smart person game!!! He has played a LOT, and so I obviously got frustrated because (A) he beat me no problem, (B) I am easily frustrated by spacial things and strategy games - i felt like he could see things i'd just NEVER see (C) i was probably really PMS-ey or something. So i got frustrated instead of having fun. But it wasn't so bad and then we changed for SWING! wooh! we split a hot pocket and got dressed and Casey made me laugh a lot about how silly i was being trying to make my hair look pretty. He makes me smile. My mom took some pics of us (it felt like prom all over again) and we headed out for one of the most fun nights of swing yet. i was deliriously happy to be dancing with him. I really have no more comment other than i had a blast dancing with my wonderful dance partner boyfriend.
Friday and Saturday later when i've had more sleep. See, what this is, is I'm too lazy to write all this out in my diary with lots of thought and reflection and added feelings and stuff - too much of an undertaking, so i'm just writing as much as i want to get down to remember it, and posting it in LJ cause i type fast.
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Casey today, on how he's gonna miss me: "And i'm gonna be looking at all that empty space in my room and be thinking 'Why aren't you filled with my Amy?'"
We're getting more comfortable around each other - ridiculously comfortable. Which is super great because I loved the day where we spent the entire day in pajamas and i didn't even like wear makeup (well perhaps a TINY bit) and we had a total blast relaxing and watching episodes of Buffy and I didn't feel like I needed to look like a supermodel 24/7 to impress him. But at the same time, we're starting to see sides of each other we normally wouldn't show one another (because we're trying to make a good impression). You can't hide for 10 days straight after a year and a half of dating, and so he saw emotional-baby-frustrated-Amy (the one who forgets things are supposed to be fun not stressful, and that sometimes plans don't work out right, and that's ok!!!), and I saw quiet-irritable-confusing-Casey. Yet we still love each other so it's all good. All in all, getting more and more comfortable has its ups and downs. I get to act like more of a ridiculous insane silly person and he doens't think i'm retarded (and he can do the same) and we can lounge around and not freak out if we're doing everything perfectly to impress the other person, but we're really getting to know ALL of each other, even the not-so-great sides of one another. "I'm rambling."
Anyway...
WEDNESDAY:
We slept in til like, noon. It was fabulous. We played a little more of the Buffy Board game (i'm such a baby, and he's so obsessed) that we'd started the night before, and went out to Le Peep together - mmm Cinnamonster! That was a good decision. Casey agreed that my Apple juice looks yucky, but tastes great. we ended up finishing our Buffy board game a little later, and I won as the Master. He told me i'm no longer allowed to complain about how much I suck at strategy games - even though i do.
Then we came back and packed for camping. we got our tent, my dad seemed uneasy that it was just the two of us going, and i tried not to pout when my mom said my sister and her friend might go too. But they just came up for S'mores for a little while. We went to king soopers and got stuff like root beer (the drink of choice on this trip!) and reese's cups for "the Casey special" - the reese's s'more. We also got a firelog. Shhh... we suck as real campers...
But anyway we drove up to Frisco, and that is just a beautiful area. Our campsite was RIGHT on the lake (wooh Peak One 46!), which was nice, and our neighbors seemed like nice people, so i wan't afraid of them being axe murderers. though we did pass one campsite full of Texans, inhabited by "cletis and bobbi" which i tried not to laugh at - I was unsuccessful. Anyway when we got there we took a walk around the lake, or part of it anyway, and frankly, it was JUST what we needed. I forget that the greatest thing to him is just a nice long walk and talk session. We take lots of walks - why should a CO vacation be any different? But yeah, it was like, just the thing to kickstart our camping. We sat on a nice rock by the beautiful lake, and discussed snake holes - Casey wanted to punch a snake in the face if it came for us. haha. We also carried a large load of firewood back with us. I felt SOO GOOD while we were camping, like all of the weirdness and confusion between us melted away and we were just totally great again. we dorked around with the ripped out tree stump, taking pictures of it as if we were the ones ripping it out of the ground, and it was pretty silly.
Eventually we started our fire and roasted a reese's s'more, which sorta tasted like firelog to me - ew. But we also made hot dogs (i dropped my first in the fire, and my third had a tiny bit of dirt on it... hehe) and those tasted mighty fine. I can't believe Casey's not into ketchup. We also set up the tent and sleeping bags, and then my family came and brought us the yoga mats to put under our sleeping bags. we all made s'mores together and chatted and laughted about mom's stupid childhood games like machine gunner, poseidon adventure, and dead preist. Casey got along well with my family, (I got a little nervous leaving him alone with 'the elders' - as sammie calls them - when i took the girls to the bathroom). Yes, there's a bathroom there, (and it smelled nice because they hung dryer sheets from the little hooks in the stalls - clever!) but the Lake Dillon area with the super structured camping is one of the few counties left in colorado allowing campfires. so, that's where we went.
It was pretty FREEZING at night but nice and cozy in our tent, even when it rained all night, thanks to our sleeping bag maximum warmth arrangement - genius. though my body got cold whenever it was exposed to air. stupid air. haha. it was HOT in there in the morning though - sun shining, annoying bird chirping....
THURSDAY:
Woke up, made PBJs, well, Casey made a peanut butter and jelly and Reese's s'more sandwich (reeses? for breakfast?! haha), and while I got ready for the day and was vain and put makeup on even in the woods, Casey fed a soggy piece of hershey bar to a chipmunk. He was incredibly delighted and named him "Chockie the Chocoholic Chipmunk" and loved feeding the cute little thing. Joey would have eaten him; I'm glad we didn't bring the dogs. Anyway after the Chockie fun we took another long walk (I LOVE WALKING WITH HIM!) and we talked about, idk, us, and kempo, and stuff. T'was nice. we almost got lost, but Casey found the trail again. We got back and took down the tent and then had to make a decision - Garden of the Gods, a hike in Frisco, or Alpine Slides in Breckenridge?
Duh, ALPINE SLIDES!!!! I had to ask twice and got a little stressed out trying to find the alpine slides cause i didn't know where i was headed. i've not been to Breckenridge in years. Anyway we got to them on Peak 8 eventually and they were a little pricy ($18 for two rides) but SOOO worth it. This is no ordinary slide my friend, oh no. you have to take a 7 minute chairlift ride to the top of a 9,970 foot mountain (peak 8). The slide is appoximately 4,000 feet long with a vertical rise of 711 feet. MAN ALIVE it's fun! Casey said he would have gone NUTS for it as a kid. I went to get my camera after the first ride so we could photo document our fun. we went down the blue run and then the black. During the first ride Casey picked me a flower as he was accellerating down the mountainside - *smile. I realized later that I had made Dad's "woohoo!" ski noise while i was riding down. Oh dear. Casey kept calling me a slow poke and making fun of me. But I went pretty fast! We had perfect timing too because they closed the ride RIGHT after we got done with our second run because it started to rain - perfect for us! We left happy and exhilarated, and had lunch in Frisco at Wendy's. DID you know Wendy's has BREAKFASTS now?!! WEIRD! i was totally obsessed with this anomaly. Casey got the new vanilla frosty. i'm not sure i support this yet...
we got back and were very tired. we decided that we were too tired to go to kempo if we wanted to enjoy dancing at all. It was a hard decision because I knew how excited he'd been about kempo beforehand, but we would have been too dead. I hope we didn't disappoint Kyle at all by not going. Casey didn't seem too bummed about it at all actually. Instead he taught me to play chess. I was excited at first, because the last time i tried to learn to play chess i was way more interested in the Van Hall's cowboy and indian chess set than i was steven's explanation. I did kinda want to learn though. i was SUPER impressed that Casey actually knows so much about chess - that's like a smart person game!!! He has played a LOT, and so I obviously got frustrated because (A) he beat me no problem, (B) I am easily frustrated by spacial things and strategy games - i felt like he could see things i'd just NEVER see (C) i was probably really PMS-ey or something. So i got frustrated instead of having fun. But it wasn't so bad and then we changed for SWING! wooh! we split a hot pocket and got dressed and Casey made me laugh a lot about how silly i was being trying to make my hair look pretty. He makes me smile. My mom took some pics of us (it felt like prom all over again) and we headed out for one of the most fun nights of swing yet. i was deliriously happy to be dancing with him. I really have no more comment other than i had a blast dancing with my wonderful dance partner boyfriend.
Friday and Saturday later when i've had more sleep. See, what this is, is I'm too lazy to write all this out in my diary with lots of thought and reflection and added feelings and stuff - too much of an undertaking, so i'm just writing as much as i want to get down to remember it, and posting it in LJ cause i type fast.
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Casey today, on how he's gonna miss me: "And i'm gonna be looking at all that empty space in my room and be thinking 'Why aren't you filled with my Amy?'"