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Today
Not starting the day great. Wish I had somewhere else to be. So tired of feeling unwelcome and uncared about. About 10 days before I'm in the streets. Don't see options or opportunities. Keep getting rejected for job applications. Fuck! I'm trying and nothing seems to be working. I don't know what to do. Other than keep trying. No money. I ( Read more... ) -
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I've been doing a lot of thinking. And I always say that. But, for reals ( Read more... ) -
Whoo hoo!
I've been going through boxes of old clothes and I found a pair of Old Navy short shorts that I was handed down from one of my nieces and when I was getting more coffee I reached in my pocket, apropos of nothing and I found 5$! That never happens. I always remember cash monies. But I found 5 bucks! WHoo hoo! Great start to my day! -
Thinking
In a time of change. Like always, amirite? Job hunting and trying to stay mildly sane while tryna get my shit a little together. Thinking quite a bit. Not that that is new by any means, but I'm alone all the time now, so it's easier to get super indepth since I don't have any real interruptions ( Read more... ) -
Argh.
I am so fucking sick of this fucking guy. I need to find a job and get the fuck away from this dumpster fire. Fuck this. -
Another day
So, I woke up today and got out of bed from some really strange dreams. I went and made coffee, the dishes I thought I needed to do were already dealt with. Yay! And went to the patio to smoke my last 2 cigarettes. That being finished, I came back in the house and got a shower. Now I'm writing this. I feel salty AF for some reason ( Read more... ) -
Too much thinking. But, is it constructive?
I finally baked the Molasses Spice cookies that I got the recipe for from Daniel. They are delicious. I'm watching Season 1 of Sex and the City. I have 2 cigarettes left til IDK when. I just text Danny to see if he wanted me to bring him the cookies I set aside for him and he was all, "I have a date tomorrow. Tuesday?" Grump grump grump. The fuck. ( Read more... ) -
Out of coffee.
So, now, of course, I'm stir crazy. When I make decisions, I want to run with them. I don't see process, I see decision and end. Blargle fuck ( Read more... ) -
Sick of being Alice in Wonderland.
Trying very hard to stay positive today. I don't even know where to start. Talking to a friend the other day really pried into my brain about the emotional abuse I have suffered my entire life. Getting yelled at yesterday drove the point home. I honestly don't know how to go about fixing the mess I sometimes call my life. And *I* give life advice ( Read more... ) -
Update after a while...
So, I'm sitting on Steven's couch writing on here for the first time in forever. lol ( Read more... )