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I dont know why, I care so much. When I shouldnt care at ALL

I dont really know what to do with myself. I still love heather, but she wont take me back. So i have to face that fact and move on. But that isnt so easy...Im not good at the whole accepting my emotions thing... I guess I will just have to kinda sit in limbo for a while and go with the flow. Which means I need to start working out and try to ( Read more... )

Im 22 now. nothing is different...everyday is the same. I feel like I am a record that just goes in cirles waiting for the songs to end. I need a happy tune, but all I play is sorrow

Today I turned 22. I spent it alone as I spend the majority of my time. I hate being alone, but its all Im good at. Being around people I never know what to do, what to say. I just feel awkward. I need to find a happy medium. I dont know where it is, and I hope I find it soon, cuz I cant do this forever

I went through a stupid depression spell. Thank god thats over. I love heather. She made it all better :)

I keep having reaccuring dreams of the one I love. But it isnt a good dream, it is her with another. I dont know how to stop this dream! I rarly sleep as life is, and EVERY time I talk to her...Some new story she "forgot" to mention pops up. Im scared, but my life as of this yesterday hit a, your fucked for being ALIVE state, so I guess I ( Read more... )

I am at this moment sitting in lizzy and rebeccas house...It is cosy, there ae kitties running around and tv playing!!! I do miss them both and I need to see them MUCH more often

I cant trust my wifey...she lies about little shyt that she thinks isnt important, but to me if you can lie about small things, then lieing about big things is just the same...I hate liars, but I love the wifey...Im confused in my own world