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zoochica

A long damn update.

Aug 15, 2008 21:10

I slept through my alarm today - a first for me. I think that I was still a bit drugged from eating out with my friends two days ago. We went to Olive Garden (which means that I brought my own food), but just being in the restaurant was enough to kick me off. As soon as I felt that dizziness and confusion just around the edges of my consciousness ( Read more... )

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lepidoctor August 16 2008, 08:49:50 UTC

My dad loves betas, tried to breed them before. You know how they like to breed them for specific colors or tailfin shapes, probably, but these people have to study GENETICS. It's effing awesome. And how they make that bubble nest and everything.

Anyway, livejournal has a bento community also, but I can't remember the username. bleh X_X

Hang in there, sistah XDDD

also lepidoctor August 16 2008, 08:52:58 UTC

sounds like you have some anxiety/depression there. It sounds stupid, but really, take it easy. If you need help you gotta ask for it.

zoochica August 18 2008, 06:22:33 UTC

Oh, the art of responsibly breeding any sort of animal is fascinating. My bearded collie friends mind the genetic records when deciding which direction to take their kennel in. When I worked at the zoo I learned all about the genetic records that my particular establishment had been entrusted with (red wolf... and another. I do not remember). It's great. I'd like to try my hand at breeding fish sometime, but I just wouldn't know what to do with all of those fry.

LJ does indeed have a bento community or two; I'm posting in bentolunch.

...and I'm hanging in there. As a fellow psych person you'll appreciate this. It really doesn't matter how much you know about a topic; in the end, the standards are always different when you're the one in it.

I am trying to take it easy, and I have gotten much better at asking for help. Thanks for reminding me. :)

lepidoctor August 18 2008, 10:36:52 UTC

Yeah, I know. That really irks me. It also irks me how some professionals are NOT the ones experiencing the so called "disorder" (I do not like to think of it as a disorder, more like dissonance) and they can do stupid things however they want. Like DID. They want to make them STOP being multiple. Unfortunately having never gone through it themselves they don't see that it's the same as killing a whole family.

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iris_diaphanous August 16 2008, 10:31:28 UTC

Oh! Your bento is beautiful. I am also intrigued by bentos.
I love those little rabbit crackers. I am also happy to hear that Storm is better and to hear about the little red-finned addition to your family. <3 I happen to like K-kritters animal crackers very much. I do not know, if you'd be allergic to any of the ingredients, but here they are:

INGREDIENTS:
Sugar, pea starch, potato starch, palm fruit oil (non hydrogenated), white rice flour, tapioca starch, water, glucose, pea protein, sodium carboxyl methylcellulose, vanilla flavor, salt, pea fiber, guar gum, inulin, ammonium bicarbonate(90), sodium bicarbonate, soy lecithin.

NUTRITION FACTS: Serving Size: 8 cookies, Calories: 80, Total Fat: 3g, Sodium: 55mg, Total Carbs: 16g, Protein: 0.

I am sorry to hear about your financial troubles. I do hope things will work out for you. <3

zoochica August 18 2008, 06:24:01 UTC

I was so happy to find those rabbit cookies! It's so hard to find anything baked that I can buy because the fats used are usually a soy-based shortening; if not, it is palm oil. I cannot have either.

Those crackers do sound good - but, unfortunately, I cannot have them. :(

I hope that things will work out for me, too. :)

iris_diaphanous August 19 2008, 00:24:06 UTC

Oh I am sorry. That is really difficult. So many allergy free products use soy or palm oil.<3 I am trying to remember this brand of allergy muffins. A different kind of oil was used in them. They are very good.

For me I have serious metabolism problems. So, much so that I have to limit my calorie intake to 600 calories a day or less. So I have to be careful about what I eat too. <3

hippie_chick August 16 2008, 16:01:59 UTC

I love bentos and yours are pretty! Your Beta is cool, too. Storm is a beauty as well.

As for you... keep hanging in there!

xxoo!!

zoochica August 18 2008, 06:24:36 UTC

Thanks, hun. <3

swimchica623 August 16 2008, 20:18:55 UTC

ooh bento sounds neat! very cool.
I would be your roommate if I could. :-( there are people out there that understand, my roommate in college was great, maybe you can interview people when they come in the door...

zoochica August 18 2008, 06:26:06 UTC

You should give it a shot! It really does make an allergy-friendly meal more enjoyable. It's almost like I forget how limited I am when I have to rearrange things in so many ways.

I was planning on doing interviews to lay down exactly what they'd have to deal with - strange diets and all. We'll see how it goes. :)

tenshiyuugiri August 17 2008, 04:12:57 UTC

Yea bentos! That's a really nice way to make lunch a lot more interesting! It's so much more energizing when it looks nice and special, I think ( ... )

zoochica August 18 2008, 06:37:22 UTC

Oh, hun. First of all - you are in no way out of line. I do not feel at all belittled by your comments.

I always like the fact that you make me think - even when I do not know when you are the initial poster! ;)

Maybe we just aren't normal people. Personality does indeed factor into this, I'm sure; the world just isn't built for people like us. It's hard to swim upstream all of the time. Besides this, it does make sense that the INFP would be more suceptible to coming apart completely in situations like this. After all, the external world will always be screwy, and we know and mourn this - but when the inner world is tumultuous INFPs in particular have nothing to ground ourselves in. We need our inner peace so badly.

Anxiety does tend to muddle itself into everything else for me - but, again, I just don't know what it is like to not be anxious. I didn't realize it was such a big problem for me right now - the death thoughts are what made me seek help this time around ( ... )

tenshiyuugiri August 18 2008, 18:37:08 UTC

Good, good, I'm glad I didn't offend, and that I keep making you think. ^_^

[I was gonna start with better things, but decided to get this out of the way first]
For me, it's usually kitchen knives and a fleeting wonder of how badly it would actually hurt. This is typically followed by a severe chastising of myself for even considering such a thing. Or crying because I thought of it. ...Somehow I always seem to end up handling them when I get that bad. It's kind of weird. The drowning thing mostly came from a recent weird experience that left me feeling that drowning wouldn't be so bad.

..Which, in the end, is kind of weird because I also have a strong affinity for water, and this strange feeling about the idea because water is a life giving thing, not a life taking thing.

It is rahter odd that you'd tend toward heights. I can't even begin to wrap my head around that! ....Maybe it's because it, in itself, defies you. Hum ( ... )