I'm on the A-Team, babydoll.

[zombieboyband]

So I spent most of today in my normal absent minded scientist/genki girl cyclic thing, but part of the day in a funk while brooding over, like, internalized misogyny because, you know. Harley and IF YOU LOVE RAVEN SO MUCH WHERE IS THE FIC, and I never listen to my riot grrrl bands anymore and POC issues and privilege and I'm no longer vegan and I

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[uniformly]

I'm so sorry if I'm all over everything, but I just wanted to say, again, that the last thing you are is a bad person, and that I love you and you're amazing.

Go have dinner, and maybe chill in I Can Has Cheezburger?

♥

[zombieboyband]

I am so down with you being all over everything, because, honestly, this morning after checking my tumblr inbox I was like WWAUUGHHH I NEED SOMEONE, QUITE POSSIBLY SPECIFICALLY NAT, TO HOLD ME. So right now I'm doing the too cool teenager thing where I totally ran behind your skirts and demanded hugs and kisses and then I'm like

COUGH

STOPIT, MOM.

and I move, like, a foot away and try to look nonchalant. while totally still clinging.

and dinner took like five minutes to make, haha.

I love you, too, for reals, and I trust you a bunch and GOD WHY AM I SO MAUDLIN ON THE INTERNET TODAY.

[uniformly]

Yeah, one thing I don't like about the whole awareness movement (btw, I don't say these things being totally, y'know, guilt free bc I have said some shitty things that weren't called for/that were whatever '-ism'. And, y'know, I didn't even notice/bat an eye when you pulled out the comparision, so I guess that says something about me?) is how everybody, like, attacks at once from every single corner. And I'm sorry that you had to bear the brunt of it on your own;;

Fact is we've recognised it, apologised, and, hey, we feel bad because we know it was wrong.

:D

Bb, I'm charmed you think of me like that, and the sentiment is returned and makes me want to shake my computer screen and demand why people I would actually get along with in person are on the wrong side of the world.

HUGS FOREVER

[zombieboyband]

Yeah, I know what you mean. And the fine lady that started the charge against me was someone I'd uncomfortably followed for a long time. I agree with a lot of what she says, but not at all of it, and definitely not how she says it because it's a fucking dogpile. I was entering bonobo data today and that's just how all their fights start--female on female, with one calling on a bunch of allies to attack one female at once. I mean, I guess I would, too, if I had the option*? But something about the group shouty dynamic there has long made me uncomfortable.

*except IRL when I've had the chance, I'm mostly not taken it, because--lone wolf machismo, or some bullshit.

HUGS FOREVER AND ONE DAY I WILL GO OVER THERE OR SOMETHING WE WILL MAKE IT WORK OKAY. Honestly, we have to.

[zombieboyband]

YESSSS

i have a bunch of e mails; it's a disease, but that's a good one for reaching me promptly.

[takmarierah]

Aw no! I have only just met you but I am sure that you are a decent person! I mean there aren't very many people who can be aware of all privilege all the time and those people are probably insane. You probably have this figured out for yourself already and all but if you are stressing out about it instead of capslocking about how everybody is wrong and you are wonderful then you are probably fine. Which... Well you would probably feel better about yourself if you were being an asshole but everyone loves a tortured genius so it all works out. <3

CLUMSY ATTEMPT AT COMFORT SUCCESS/FAIL?

Hey P.S. what kind of scientist are you?

[zombieboyband]

YOU ARE A TELEPATH I JUST MENTIONED THE SCIENTIST THING.

I just got my undergrad psych degree and I'm doing essentially aspiring primatologist intern work at a zoo--though they use me for general mammal behavior observation stuff, too, and I do stuff like taking 3+ years of bonobo wounding data and making it into a spreadsheet. I'm taking a year off to work/study for and take my GRE, and then it's off to a master's program somewhere, and then, hopefully, to my phD.

My original research interest was robots/AI/social robots/human-robot-interaction, but then I basically got blindsided by ethology and I'm, like, YAAAAY ANIMALS HOW FASCINATINGGGG all the time.

And I feel totally comforted, by the way. THAT WAS NOT CLUMSY AT ALL. It was very charming, in fact, and I am grateful.

[takmarierah]

NO YOU SIMPLY HAVE A BAD POKER!SCIENCE!FACE BECAUSE IT IS THE FIRST THING YOU SAY IN THIS POST

Awesome! That sounds like a grand old time although our primate relatives scare me a little with how human they can seem and then BAM they take you apart like you're made of crop circles and UFOs. Still primate psychology is fascinating, even when it's just something like spreadsheets and wound data!

Although... Mmmmm robot/human interaction.

...cyborg-primate/human interaction?

Yay for charming non-clumsiness! \o/

[citizenjess]

I totally forgot you were the shaving!'fic person and now I'm all OMGGGGG LOVE. I think my wife read it because you titled it after a Sweeney Todd song, but it is the hottest thing ever. I never knew I needed it in my life until it was there, etc.

[zombieboyband]

hahah, yes, THAT IS ME. I had no idea you liked it! I am so thrilled! Though I think maybe you friended me after I posted some? IDK. I will finish it one day, I swear. Just Erik's rage keeps on being almost right but slightly off, so I'm like, REWRITE REWRITE.

and I love Sweeney Todd, like, embarrassingly much. THE THEMES, THE THEMES, FDKJFDJSFJ. AND CANNIBALISM? love it.

[citizenjess]

Our community theatre is like super-high quality and they did Sweeney Todd earlier this year. The dude who played Sweeney works in the cafeteria at the college where I work, so it's occasionally ~awkward~ when he serves you food. I don't mention it, however, because I'm pretty sure that would guarantee the imbibing of human meat pie.

Also, I am hideously bad/shy about commenting on 'fic, but I do link urrything I like on my Delicious account for X-Mans fandom (username: "manbearsharkhorse", because Fassy has SO MANY SPIRIT ANIMALS). Anyway, shaving!'fic was definitely one that I enjoyed. :D

[zombieboyband]

SWOON. I think I would be ecstatic. I might order something non vegetarian for the thrill and then...give it to someone else? But: AWESOME.

I kind of want a delicious account but then I'm like NOO I HAVE TO LEARN NEW INTERFACES and my horror makes me feel old. But really! So glad to hear you liked it since I'm always creeping on your journal, reading all your stuff.

[skylilies]

....i was going to send you a virtual gift flower to emphasize the point that you're a lovely person, but lj cockblocked me. ):

so this'll have to do:

[zombieboyband]

YOU GAVE ME A BIG PRETTY FLOWER IN MY COMMENTS; IT TOTALLY COUNTS. I LOVE IT, BB. I WILL, UH. DRAW YOU A SQUID TOMORROW? FIGURE OUT HOW THE LJ GIFT EVEN WORKS? IDKKK.

And I ate! Veggie burger pieces in a bowl of greens with hot sauce over EVERYTHING because: hot sauce. I have tastebuds of steel.

[zombieboyband]

HAI MY INTERNET IS CUTTING IN AND OUT

ILU

BEDTIME NOW.