So... I go to put on my glasses, screw is loose somehow. Lens pops out and then the screw pops out. So the right side of my glasses are no longer held together to contain the lens. I scramble around my apartment for about an hour trying to figure out what to do and finally I find a blow dart from my blow dart gun. So, I take the blow dart and see ( Read more... )

This is the first time I've ever not been depressed at this time of the year. Usually it starts on my birthday, that sense of emptiness and some resentment with no target that manages to fester into sorrow. It's not here. There's not even a slight tinge of anything resembling it. Instead I've managed to maintain this feeling of happiness and ( Read more... )

Y'know, aside from this nasty cold I've got. I feel really good. I do. I feel like the daily compliment to myself is having some legitimate effect, strangely enough. Robert IMed me through the one medium I hadn't blocked him on yet yesterday, MSN. It was... strange ( Read more... )

I don't think I'm ever going to have the relationship with my dad I've always hoped for. I've always wanted him in my life, I've always needed him to be there for me ( Read more... )

I've been trying to apologize to all the people I've wronged. I don't think anything will come of any of it, nothing came of some of the other apologies I've made. I have wronged a lot of different people a lot of different ways. But, at least by doing this I will have some small peace of mind. Rather than constantly looking back on the things ( Read more... )

I don't know what my deal is, I hate talking to pretty much anyone anymore. It's something I got over but now I'm experiencing the issue in a different way. Before I was just too damn insecure to say anything. Now that I'm over that I actually chat and get to know people and honestly I don't really like any of them ( Read more... )

Just got home from the Grand Hotel. It was a really great experience. Even the start where I was just meeting people. Everyone was really friendly, a lot of cracking jokes, I felt really welcome. The drive to get out to Jerome was a tad long. I personally didn't know where Jerome was even, so it was cool to see something like that. We could see the ( Read more... )

I'm joining the Arizona Paranormal Society today. I'm soooo excited. I've wanted to be a ghost hunter for years, now I get to do it. We're going out to Jerome to investigate the grand hotel. The Grand Hotel is a hotel that used to be a hospital and an asylum and had a tuberculosis ward at one point. Jerome is an old mining town out in the desert. I ( Read more... )

All my friendships are fading. Whether they be something personal or something of the internet, I've noticed the strings severing. It feels bad, but it's not enough to make me wallow in self loathing. The only question I can really ask myself is if it's normal, something that happens to everyone ( Read more... )

As you mature you realize the mistakes and problems of the past are simply that, the past. You can't change the bad things you've done or that have happened to you, and more importantly they've made you who you are good or bad. You can't simply dwell on the past allowing yourself to sulk and despair on your failures and shortcomings. Instead you ( Read more... )