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zennywitch

An Update

Mar 10, 2007 20:11

I haven't been updating my journal. I hate making negative posts but they help. I had to wait until I wasn't feeling so bad. I can walk and see today and that makes me feel better. I've been having some really weird trains of thought.

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poodlemama March 11 2007, 06:30:04 UTC

ooh it is a weird thought isn't it. I'm sure you can find a way to rationalise it all. It's your survival, so think think think! I have no idea what the implications are of having psychic abilities, so I'd be very interested, when/if you are ready, to hear your take on this side of your situation.

zennywitch March 11 2007, 06:47:00 UTC

I've thought a lot about being psychic. When I first learned I had end stage renal disease and that transplantation was my only hope for long term survival I was very upset. The idea of someone else's organs inside me was too disturbing. Thoughts and feeling imprint a residue on physical matter. They leave a trace. Something you carry in your body your whole life soaks up all the thoughts and feelings you've ever had and just as every spice in a blend add to the whole, every thought blends with the rest to leave a psychic flavor. When I touch someone else's mind I percieve their flavor. To have someone's whole organ in me would enable me to sense them quite clearly. It's important to me that, well, I'd like it if my donor's flavor was palatable to me. I would like them to be a kind person. A strong person. Not a fearful or mean person. I'll be living with their flavor for a long time before it fades and my own thoughts and feelings have seasoned the physical matter and the organ becomes my own ( ... )

poodlemama March 11 2007, 10:48:52 UTC

I re-read your post and my dirty mind settled on the bit about the knitting man's penis getting in the way, so I looked back over your entries to get the rest of the story, but couldn't find it. What??? That sounds like it's going to be an amusing story, although I can guess how it goes ;)

poodlemama March 11 2007, 10:56:18 UTC

oh, having sticky-beaked back over your post, I need to remind you about the quote you posted that said something to the effect that there is no wrong way to knit, so go to it and have a go. Don't be too critical of yourself - go forth and knit!
I learned to knit from the old lady who looked after me at boarding school where I was sent at age 3. Miss Ashbury was Victorian in nature and insisted that we all do quiet activities on a Sunday - no running around - so we all, including the boys, learned to knit and sew. I never got very good at it and still prefer to do only plain knitting - I think it's called stocking stitch (anyway it's the one that isn't purl) but I love the repetitive nature of it. Knitting quietens my noisy mind. That's gotta be a good thing.

zennywitch March 11 2007, 19:13:15 UTC

And knit I will. I've been practicing all night. Experimenting really. I finally figured out why I knit the way I do. I can't do much with my left hand. I'm very right handed. Almost as if my left hand was specifically designed to do nothing but hold things for my right hand. That's why I hold the yarn that comes from the ball with my right hand and "throw" the yarn to knit. Moving the yarn with my left hand takes too much effort.

Basic garter stitch is when you knit both ways. Stockinette is when you knit one way and purl your way back. You can make plenty of stuf just using garter. And I like the meditative quality of doing that too. Folloing complicated patterns is cool and all, but just working the yarn easily, stitch after stitch, is nice and mellow and soooo relaxing.

I like your story about learning to knit. Thank you!.

kitschin_witch March 11 2007, 18:21:36 UTC

I love your new icon, there is a new period film coming out called Amazing Grace. I love me some period films! Anyway, feeling better today, I think Orion and I are seeing Rhonda and Ryan today, kind of a playdate. This week looks good for me for some resaurant time.

zennywitch March 11 2007, 19:16:49 UTC

My English buddy made my icon at my request about a year ago. I guess you hadn't seen it. I haven't been feeling too amazing lately. Orion is more than welcome to join me/us on a restaurant date.

orb_weaver March 11 2007, 19:27:53 UTC

Regarding Knitting: If your project comes out in a way that you like, then you're doing it correctly. I'll share a trick my Aunt taught me back in the 60s when I was a little girl. This trick refers to casting on. Cast on to two needles rather then just the one. Then pull the second needle out when you're ready to begin knitting. This way your stiches are easier to knit and aren't tighter than the rest of your knitting. It works pretty well for me.
Please keep sharing your weird thoughts. I've never thought about the fact that getting on a transplant list would mean that you are now waiting for someone to die. It makes me wonder about whether you can or should get to know about the doner. You've given me a lot to think about. If someone donated just one kidney, so that they could give it while they live, would you still have to wait for the pancreas? Would you have a psychic connection with the living doner that didn't previously exist? Sorry. You just got my brain to rollin".
I sure hope you get that kitty soon.

zennywitch March 12 2007, 04:38:28 UTC

Wow. I just wayyched that Extreme makeover: home edition show and it featured a family that lost a son who was an organ donor. In death he saved four lives and during the show they introduced the family to the girl who got their son's heart. i was bawling. I would want to meet the donor family and learn what I could about the donor. And CONGRATULATIONS! You gave me something to think about that I hadn't considered. I never wondered if I would get the same connection to a living kidney donor. I'm sure I would. But how complicated would that be? I use my "gifts" as a psychological healer. I can't help using the info I'm given to help others. It's antural. Well, if I knew the person, the intimacy would be intense on my part. My special gift is psychometry which is the bility to get info off of things I touch. Not all psychics work that way. Wow. That would be so intense. AND if would give me a chance to "pay back" the person who donated by working with them. I wonder if it wouldn't be better if the person didn't know i was psychic. Now ( ... )