when i am in the midst of or am coming out of an episode, i find it difficult to regain the same breadth of vocabulary that usually colors my speech. example, i can open up my inbox and find 30 emails worth of store advertizements and zazzle telling me i can now personalize my beer holders and i have to spent a few precious seconds of my life ( Read more... )

it's been a week since i've been back on my antidepressants, so far i've felt nothing but the side effects. i wake up every day at 7 am hating myself, unable to stop moving because if i stopped, the world would tear apart and i would lose my mind. i jiggle incessantly. my moving foot keeps the world together ( Read more... )

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i don't like it when my friends' little sisters start college and join a sorority with a bunch of slutty-looking girls ( Read more... )

NOOOO SCHOOOLLLLL NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

alkaline smell of pantene pro-v whenever i shift in bed, locks of hair almost but not quite dry hanging cold and moist against my arm. i showered at 1 AM when everyone else was asleep, trying my best to catch all the drops against my back, but i knew i woke someone up, and that someone would tell everyone else and then i am if not already the ( Read more... )

i've been here for four hours, and i am already in love. the smell of salt, the cry of gulls, and distant ships emerging from the haze like ghosts in the harbor drop anchors in my mind. perfection.

according to the standards of the WHO, i'm apparently starving. why is it so difficult for me to eat properly? sometimes i wonder if all of my health problems aren't from just not maintaining a healthy weight ( Read more... )

there are a lot of things i don't like about ( Read more... )

blind love and affection, is it worth any less? is the love of an innocent and naive child any less precious than one of an angry, embittered man who doesn't easily give away his heart, because one is so easily earned and the other the final prize of a tumultuous and often painful fight ( Read more... )