So far, thanks to my fitness regimen and watching what I put into my body, I have lost nearly 25 pounds. I'm starting to see the difference in the way my clothes fit, and my body...just, well, its different. I never, not once, thought of myself as a fat girl. I was large, sure, but it wasn't my body. Now I'm starting to connect my mind with the ( Read more... )

Monday was an ordinary, slow day at the store. I was doing my baking thing, looking forward to having some soup (vegetarian soup!) for my lunch. At approx. 11:30 am, my friend (lets call her Chula) comes up to my table, looking down, hands pressed to her face. We tease and girl-flirt constantly, so I smile and try to get at her hands. Then I see ( Read more... )

--and the dance carried on ( Read more... )

The Holocaust.

( sing your song, sure and strong... )

Life has been pretty good lately. I've been hanging out with people I adore, there may be a relationship in my future, I have interesting things to read within reach, and I'm wearing new jeans right now. Wee. The best thing that could happen right now would be the lottery, the worst would be a family member dying, or getting pregnant. Since there ( Read more... )

you see right through me

I don't really know what I'm doing sometimes.  I feel like I'm...coasting, drifting, going through the motions. There aren't any times when I feel alive anymore. I mean, I know I am. That is true whenever I wake up and take Emmi out for a walk. (The poor little thing has to have two sweaters on, she gets so cold.) I'm not... ( Read more... )

I've been trying to keep my life more organized as of late. In part because I was very much not raised to do so, and I see it as a significant part of maturing, and the other because its simply a good habit to get into. So I've got my little agenda planner from Dollar General, and I write down the hours I work at one job, then the hours as the ( Read more... )

Sometimes, she just feels like writing. The words come out easily then. Usually. Other times, she will be sitting in a chair, on the bed, or before her computer, staring into space and trying to find the words. Most times they sneak up on her, strangling and blocking out any other desires or priorities with their selfish thirst. Slaking this lust ( Read more... )