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So far, thanks to my fitness regimen and watching what I put into my body, I have lost nearly 25 pounds. I'm starting to see the difference in the way my clothes fit, and my body...just, well, its different. I never, not once, thought of myself as a fat girl. I was large, sure, but it wasn't my body. Now I'm starting to connect my mind with the form my being is taking. It all sounds rather dissasociative, doesn't it? It weird, but thats the clearest articulation I can form.
I still love Hapkido. Its so hard sometimes. But this week, I found rolling and backrolls were my favorite part of class. I can jump a single bag, now, and I nearly always come up on my feet. I need to be at three bags to test, and I cannot wait. I hope to try two next week. The image in my mind is for when I take my orange belt test, and my mom and maybe my grandparents are there, seeing me do all this amazing stuff I've learned.
Its changed me. I've become much calmer, and in control of lashing out. I'm noticeably stronger and leaner, but thats also partially to taking up running daily these last few weeks. I used to be so concerned with my body image, but now that I've been in this for four months, I know whatever I do in Hapkido is going to form my body into something stronger and more capable of taking on the challenges and lessons Sir puts before me. Its a comfort.
I can feel the strength in my legs, and I know what my body can undertake when pushed. Its so good, to know I can do things that would surprise people.
I still love Hapkido. Its so hard sometimes. But this week, I found rolling and backrolls were my favorite part of class. I can jump a single bag, now, and I nearly always come up on my feet. I need to be at three bags to test, and I cannot wait. I hope to try two next week. The image in my mind is for when I take my orange belt test, and my mom and maybe my grandparents are there, seeing me do all this amazing stuff I've learned.
Its changed me. I've become much calmer, and in control of lashing out. I'm noticeably stronger and leaner, but thats also partially to taking up running daily these last few weeks. I used to be so concerned with my body image, but now that I've been in this for four months, I know whatever I do in Hapkido is going to form my body into something stronger and more capable of taking on the challenges and lessons Sir puts before me. Its a comfort.
I can feel the strength in my legs, and I know what my body can undertake when pushed. Its so good, to know I can do things that would surprise people.