Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
'Cuz it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
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As much as I hate my past, and I hate my family, there's still that small part of me that loves some of them. My sister, in particular. She was one of the main reasons that I moved away in the first place, We fought constantly, and we argued about every little thing. She's 10 years younger than myself, and she was pushing herself into everything I ( Read more... )

Love is a funny thing. You expect it to be easy. You expect it to be a world of roses and laughs and perfect moments that you find only in movies. You expect her to always say the right thing, and always know exactly how you feel, or exactly how to react to it. You expect her to calm you down when you're yelling or to chase you when you run away. ( Read more... )

Jesus fucking Christ

DO NOT FUCKING TREAT US LIKE FUCKING KIDS.

If we are fucking "friends" why fucking hide shit from us and treat us like we're not allowed to know anything. Fuck you.

Just.

Fuck you.

no fucking love,
kay

Adam,

I know you're sitting right next to me, but I wanted to write you a letter. I do that a lot, as you well know. But this was somewhere that I knew I could keep it safe forever. Be able to keep it for as long as possible, be able to go back and read it when somethings wrong, or you're just in one of those moods where you don't know what or why. ( Read more... )

I really thought things were getting better. They seemed to be getting great. A whole 24 hours on such an amazing high. The good mood kind of high, not the smoking kind of high. Anyway. It was absolutely amazing. but I should have known better. How hard was the crash going to be?

Well.. I got the answer to a question I never asked, or wanted to know ( Read more... )

Look. I've really had it with people.

I know we're a young married couple, but seriously, back the fuck off. Okay? We need to learn how to live out our marriage without being told what to do, and how to do it. I promise you, we know how the other feels, and we know that we have our down moments. We know that the other isn't perfect, but you need to ( Read more... )

Suppose I'm taking my mood out on livejournal. Not that it should be upset. It has been very deprived of my presence lately. And I really don't know what else to do with my thoughts and feelings. I dunno. I worry to much maybe? I just don't know what or how to say things to people, and god knows if that person even read the blog I've previously ( Read more... )

I'm watching the love of my life holding our baby boy. It's the most amazing feeling ever.

I love my husband.
I love my baby boy.
I love my baby girl.

kay xox

Life. Life. Life.
Seems that it just keeps getting in the way of everything. I don't know what to do anymore, I don't know what to say. Everything I do seems like it's just not good enough, or right.

People are telling me that I don't make my husband happy. How could I? I mean, he must not be happy if he's sleeping with another woman, right? Clearly ( Read more... )