idk why but ive felt really bad about wronging hella people in the past and fucking up relationships and shit. im hella pissed about shit ive fucked up and like ruining really good things. im pissed for going to fast wih that first guy. i feel like i wasted so much time with people that only hurt me too. i let it go on too long with both brett and ( Read more... )

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every morning i wake up and i dont even want to get out of bed ( Read more... )

i am not as happy as i appear to be. i cant even open up on my own journal. inside, i hurt a lot. even when im with the people i love the most. my heart aches and i cant explain it.

one of those weeks that feels like its amounted to nothing

do you ever feel like youre going through a lot of shit
but since there seems to be a balance in life
so you think that in the end, therell be something worth all the pain

do you still believe it?

i need change.

"im gonna water the cactus with the bong water ok?" hehehe

hum, well, ive been hanging out tons as usual. yesterday i went to justins after school and smoked with everyone, then went to emmas orthodontist place and waited for her to get out, then went to her dads, then went home. at home my dads gf brought home a drunk and she had a daughter and i got drunk in her backseat and smoked and then i got home ( Read more... )

yesterday my dad bought me a pack of smokes and i was really grateful for it. he gave me $80 today so now i can repay almost all my friends i owe!! yeah!!!!! i also waited 2 weeks to thizz and i popped last night and i felt so good!! its been a while and i didnt come down bad at all. im pretty pleased. im so glad i waited 2 weeks.. and kass gave me ( Read more... )

how is it that someone cant figure out what they want
why do i have to analyze something, why dont i have a gut feeling
a strong opinion on anything
why do i ask myself what i feel
i dont understand

i wish my heart could tell me something because
i dont know what to even think anymore