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[yerawizarderri]

[It had taken a considerate amount of time, But Eridan had figured out how to use the SFC since it wasn't all too different from the computer he had gotten used to while in the veil. And so he types a message.]

hello

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[yerawizarderri]

wwhat wwill that fuckin provve kar

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[yerawizarderri]

[There's great hesitance in turning the video on, not because he was lying, he wasn't, but because he felt so pathetic. He didn't want to show his face, he felt ashamed, lowly, like filth at this moment. But if it was what he needed to do to prove himself then he'd do it.]

[When the feed clips on, it shows Eridan's face, his expression was pitiful and if anything, he probably looked more sincere than he ever had in his entire life.]

L-Look Kar...

[His voice was breaking, that lump in his throat definitely making it hard for him to speak.]

I mean it, okay? I fuckin' mean it. I'm fuckin' sorry.

I-I...

I made a fuckin' mistake, I... Kar you know I lowe her, you know I do. I wasn't thinkin', I shouldn't hawe done that--but I did and there isn't a fuckin' thing I can do about it.

[Yeah his eyes were starting to well up, but he was trying his damnedest to keep them back. God what did he do, goddamnit. She must hate him, why wouldn't she? Oh god oh god oh god. He's wiping at his eyes, trying to get rid of those pesky purple tears but

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[yerawizarderri]

[Eridan looks around himself bleary eyed, but he does in fact see the glowing coral that was mentioned.]

Y-Yeah... I see it. It's not too fuckin' f-far from me...

[He looks back to the screen, not sure what to say, but not exactly wanting to hang up or anything. He was just a bottle of unsure and dread.]

I'm so sorry Kar...

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[yerawizarderri]

[Eridan remains silent as Karkat speaks, not daring to speak up or anything. And even if he had wanted? What did he have to say? Nothing. He was at such a loss it was pitiful.]

A-Alright... I will...

[As far as the moirail thing, he'll talk about that more once Karkat was here.]

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[yerawizarderri]

[From the moment Karkat turned off the feed up till he found him, Eridan just stood awkwardly in place, thinking over everything that was said, everything that had been done. So many feelings and emotions to sort out and he was afraid it wasn't a job he could handle alone. He was confused most the time with them and just normally went with what seemed like the good idea at the time, but he was now seeing that those blind and impromptu decisions weren't working out for him.]

[Not by a long shot.]

[So he was questioning everything, questioning what he had done. He wholeheartedly believed he was doing a noble thing when it happened, when he had asked Fef to come with him. It was true he was leaving everyone behind, he was going to leave Kan and Kar both there to die--which was a hard decision to do, they were his friends. They were the only ones who would listen to him, would help him even if they weren't sincere in it, but that was more than what anyone else had done for him. He had finally convinced himself it was for the sake of his

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[yerawizarderri]

[Eridan definitely stares at the gesture for a few long moments, before shakily extending his hand, completing the diamond shape with his own fingers. He felt silly doing this, but he quickly pushed those feelings aside.]

[As he stares on at their hands and then to Karkat, he feels a well of emotion spring within him, having the other there and not exactly berating him for what he had done, not exactly against him--wanting to help him. It was too great a feeling, it was relieving, freeing really and so taking up that practice that got him in this situation in the first place--he hugs Karkat.]

[Holding onto him tightly, the towels long since dropped, and his wet form holding Karkat close. He didn't care if Karkat was going to hit him, push him away--okay yeah he really didn't want that to happen--but he needed to have some sort of physical contact. He tucks his head into the crook of Karkat's neck, his arms tightly around him and he starts to just weep. He was such an idiot--a fool, a good for nothing pathetic piece of rubbish, worse

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[yerawizarderri]

[Eridan did need this. Need to feel like he wasn't entirely hated, even if he was. He just needed to hold someone, feel the reassurance, feel the warmth from someone close. Know that the person in his vicinity wasn't going to attack him, accuse him, judge him--even if those were innate possibilities, two of which were already done, probably. But that didn't matter right now, no, not to him. The feeling of comfort this hug gave him was enough for him to forget the possibilities of those things. The fact that he was going to have to deal with all of it and more from his actions. If Karkat knew what he had done, the others that were possibly here probably knew too. And while that thought wasn't a current thing in his mind, it was sure to cause him to worry later one. Adding even more dread and even more self hate to what was the staggering amount he already had