I did about two hours of manual labor tonight, and it was fun fun. I weeded a small patch of garden in the backyard, taking everything out except for some well-established daffodils in the corner. I turned all of the remaining soil, found a bunch of grubs and a spider the size of a dime, and then put garden soil down on top and raked everything ( Read more... )

It's maddening, not being able to sleep. Tonight would be such a great night to get some sleep, on account of I don't have to work until 3:30 tomorrow. I could wake up tomorrow morning at a reasonable hour, feeling rested, and accomplish a few things with my day. I'd go to the bank, empty the dishwasher, prep the back garden for the clematis ( Read more... )

I'm somewhat irritated with my mom right now. Shortly after I came home from work tonight she got a call from my aunt, and my mom came downstairs mid-call and told me that my aunt had visited her doctor (a holistic type that focuses on alternative treatments who also happens to be an MD) and they talked a lot about me. She then proceeded to ( Read more... )

I'm covered in potting soil and there's dirt underneath my fingernails and everything smells earthy and fresh. Impatiens are in containers and in the ground, peppers and tomatoes are in containers, and tomorrow i'll find somewhere to put some gerbers I bought (my mother is unhappy about sharing the deck space because the flowers on the deck are ( Read more... )

I took a nap today and woke up with free-floating anxiety. I'm going to meet Christina's potential business partner to see if it's a good match for them to share me as a nanny this summer since they'll both be working out of his house, but I really don't think that's it. I think it's probably just the fact that I'm no longer on any benzo, and i' ( Read more... )

I should learn to drink more water during the first half of my day and less during the last half. I have to piss like a racehorse at night and it's maddening to have to constantly get up and pad down the hallway and back, then have to turn the light back on in my room and check that nobody snuck in while I was in the bathroom and found a hiding ( Read more... )

Sometimes I do stupid things. Sometimes I forget that i've been struggling with my back lately because of all the toddler-hauling I do, and I pick up my mom's 73 pound german shepherd. Now my back really hurts ( Read more... )

I hesitate to even write about this here, but I figure as long as I steer clear of mentioning it on facebook, it's okay ( Read more... )

I am an idiot. Thursdays are already crazy days for me: I have Quinton from 8-2:30 and then Anna from 2:30-6:15. My neighbor called tonight needing care for tomorrow night. She was in a jam, so I told her i'd help her out. So now i'm going straight there after Anna. I expect i'll be there until about ten, and i've never sat for these little ( Read more... )

I've been depressed all day. I can't figure out why, nor can I shake it. Bleh.