Havn't looked at this in a LONG TIME.

Hello world, im still here. I have been talking to elliot alot lately, (my ex) he is going to come visit me here and then i am going to go visit him in new york in october. im really excited. I miss him alot. Sometimes you need to lose somebody to realize that they were the one. I know alot of my family and friends may not agree with me, but ( Read more... )

this is so fucking hard to deal with.

i havnt written in a while. i havnt been home. ive been working or at elliots or here but just avoiding the internet. Im lonely. i hate being lonely. i miss my friends but ive realized that all my friends that i dont have anymore.. were bad for me. so now im stuck with none. which is better? im not sure. who makes all new friends at 22 ( Read more... )

im drunk.

dunno how many calories the drinks were.

but dayyyyyyyyum
drunk.

good morning. it is a beautiful day. i WILL be positive today. i will NOT let people bring me down. i WILL do well on my diet. i will NOT think about my money problems.

stay positive.

I dont remember if i posted about a job i was applying for. It was to work in a science lab in norton. i was really excited and i emailed them a copy of my resume. every day after i emailed it i checked my email like 30 times a day. finally i got a letter in the mail and i guess they already hired somebody. so sadface to that... but ( Read more... )

I have been restricting my calorie intake since may 8th. Its been 10 days and i havnt lost ONE stinking pound. I cannot WAIT until the 22nd 4 more days and i can start my exercise and i BETTER freakin lose this weight. ITS KILLIN ME. arghh. its just so frustrating because i literally eat like 1/4 of what i was eating and i thought i would ( Read more... )

so im EXTREME dieting ( Read more... )

i just need to get past the dizziness, weakness, and headaches and then ill be on my way.