hey everyone just got back from Rocky POint i was a virgin but not nemore and i love it and goin back next year. i got drunk have fun with lots of hot gay guys and even got the hook up the first night that has come back to arizona he's built like vin disle and has black hair and green eyes and is the richest sweetes older guy i have met. well if u ( Read more... )

hi everybody. i miss u all and wish i could be where i coould chat all the time but i'm not. sorry love u all and hope o catch u all soon. bunches of love. RYAN

i have to break the news as bluntly as possible. i'm leaving Tucson as of tomarrow i will be gone, not able to chat or even keep up my LJ, which sux but i think i'm gonna have a comp by 3 or 4 months from now so i'll be back. i'm gonna miss every1 so much, to Kat thanx for bein the best sister i have ever had u were always there for me in every way ( Read more... )

well now hi everybody, guess what Ryan has bein feelin alot better bout himself and has gottena boost of self confidance. YEA ME i was out in town for like 2 hours and the whole time i was checkin out guys and sum were checkin me out. i guess this selfconfidance thing is god, hope so. but neways Ryan is peachy so peachy he's talkin bout himself in ( Read more... )

the past cupole of days have been really hard for me. For sum reason i have been thinking bout John nonstop. in turn this is a bad thing to be happening for me cause John is dead and has been for 3 years. I have also thought it was my fault, if I didn't break up with hjim when i did he would still be here. But neways like i said l8ly everything has ( Read more... )

i feel rather useless, and have for a couple of days now. it seems like i can't do nething right nemore, so i wonder y i bother. i hate bein called selfish by sum1 who knows nuthin about a certian situation i'm in, i went to them for advise and got called selfish, that hurt alot. that leads me to think y am i even here, y r they more important to ( Read more... )

I am very upset that i am going to have sumthin bad done to me sumtime in the near future and worse of all i got upset bout it and tryed to tell kat and she slammed the door on me when i couldn't talk fast enough for her.so here i am with 2 drunks who don't even realize that i have been crying for the past 2 hours, and seem that they could care ( Read more... )

i hate being ignored but at the same time i do it back to them when it's don't to me so i guess i'm asking for it cause they probably don't realize that they r doin it. but still be a lil considerate to the fact that when ur not talk to sum1 at all and they talk to u and they get all narsististic to what u r sayin and pretend that they didn't even ( Read more... )

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I swear the next time sum1 tells me they can handel their alcohol and their asleep longer than me i duno what i'm gonna do. Moma Kat, Aaron and I got drunk last night it was all fun. i had a especially good time teasing Aaron **evil grin because i know what i mean**. but like i said it was all fun until the end when we were gettin tired and Aaron ( Read more... )