if i wouldn't have found the picture of the duck your sister drew for me the day we got back together...i totally would have been okay right now. But that's not how life works is it? Sometimes we tell ourselves..."it's gonna be okay" and "i'll make it through." But sometimes, you just find that the drawing is the last straw to wanting to be ( Read more... )

I thought a time would come when life wouldn't be so damn confusing...well it's just become even more confusing...everyone is leaving for college...and i'm sitting on my ass...stupid head. Lol. I just don't know what to do with myself sometimes. EVERYthing is confusing about is life of mine. I try to make the best of what i can...but it's so ( Read more... )

The thoughts...confusion...the pain and hurt. The stupid thoughts that go on inside my head...for once i thought i had it good...and look. What do i have? Nothin...i think to myself...oh, look...you're getting better...but, in all reality...i'm still the same fucked up little kid i was 3 years ago. what does it matter...i don't know how to get ( Read more... )

So yeah...school is pretty much over. It's just over. Such an interesting day yesterday...quite eventful. It seemed almost just like any other day though which was weird. And in that instant the final bell rang...it was OVER like that! I got gas today at like...even though i will miss my friends at school...it was kinda nice doing nothing and ( Read more... )

Happy Easter!!!

...don't hate me

I'm not sure why it is...during the day i can feel great about almost everything...even going to work.I laugh here and there and talk about anything and everything and just FEEL good. But at the end of the day, it all goes away...there's really nothing left. I just feel empty. And crushed like i'm living my life for nothing...but i will never ( Read more... )

It's said that while one is on or under the influence of some substance, that certain things are much clearer and freely talked about than at perfectly clear-minded times. It's not always proven to be true, but right now i could say i feel like...well...i guess i'm just thoughtful of what's going on in my life and what i choose to ignore or push ( Read more... )

...yeah, i jynxed it. Nice goin.

...i hope that i don't jynx myself with my mood. That would really suck...somethin bad would happen. I couldn't have that. Please don't go away.