I don't know where I'm going lately..I feel lost. I can't motivate myself to do anything anymore, i don't see my friends, i don't ride, i don't work, i can't even make it to the gym for 30 minutes. I don't really do much of anything anymore...i haven't left my bed in a few days. I have so much on my mind, i have so many things that i should be ( Read more... )

I'm in a creative writing class and i love it, its the best class ive taken so far. Right now we are working on poems. I've learned how to share my work so here i go ( Read more... )

my twin hates me...i cried for an hour today.

...as depression settles in once again.

Ahh the word I fear. Diet. I've always been an over weight person, even as a child I was never thin although I wasn't as bad as I am now. I have more boobs and ass than most people in my school for a white person. Anyway so I have been attempting diets ever since Freshman year and I have failed miserably every single time. I think I have discovered ( Read more... )

i made it and im alive and breathing. Everything goes by a lot slower in california like everything is in slow motion. we are 3 hours behind out here and I just got onto the boat today. We leave the port in like 2 hours. I have already determined that I am most definitely a cowgirl hardcore and will never be a prim little princess. I was already ( Read more... )

Besides my horse and riding...everything sucked

FUCK!!!

<3Liv

Im officially grounded. Apparently i got "bad" grades. Whatever, im not really upset about it cuz i guess i deserve it. I mean ive been a straight A student all my life and now im getting C's and B's. My parents said that im slacking and turning into one of "them". my ? is who is them? They said that ive become lazy and what not. Well ill just have ( Read more... )

Since im sitting here alone in my room with my homework on my right and a plate that used to have pizza on it to my left...i decided to write to my lovely fans. Ha fans...thats a funny thought..I have fans? No i don't i have readers...no i don't thats newspapers. I have....friends? wow thats pushing it...oh well. FAOA meeting was cancelled. Pythons ( Read more... )

Ha yea its been like what? 6 months since ive updated. Yea thats because im boring and have no life to tell about...lets see i got a new horse another job a license a jeep (had a car but i totalled it, long story wasn't my fault)No recent love interests really, Ryan is a goner...that was great while it lasted but blondie had me beat from the ( Read more... )

Its amazing how much you can learn in a half hour. I walked in today the person i had always feared to be and i walked out today something new......something else. And i hope i can become the person i have always wanted to be.  My trainer finally broke through today i mean i realized what i have been doing wrong all this time, i have to take what i ( Read more... )