Losing myself
I don't know where I'm going lately..I feel lost. I can't motivate myself to do anything anymore, i don't see my friends, i don't ride, i don't work, i can't even make it to the gym for 30 minutes. I don't really do much of anything anymore...i haven't left my bed in a few days. I have so much on my mind, i have so many things that i should be doing better but i just can't...where am i going? I hope this feeling goes away soon because its horrible and the worst part is no one seems to care. My so called friends are nowhere to be found. I've lost 7 lbs and 5 inches off my waist and thighs.
I plan on quitting my job. I put up a flyer for the sale of my horse and i put up a flyer for the lease of my horse. Its not fair to make Pennuche wait around for me to miraculously get my motivation back. My grades are all over the place but I'm way to lazy to do any work to make up for the grades. My rents are down my back about everything, its driving me nuts. I have a thing for someone who I can't be with but atleast i know how he feels and he knows how I feel.
Right now...my life sucks.
I plan on quitting my job. I put up a flyer for the sale of my horse and i put up a flyer for the lease of my horse. Its not fair to make Pennuche wait around for me to miraculously get my motivation back. My grades are all over the place but I'm way to lazy to do any work to make up for the grades. My rents are down my back about everything, its driving me nuts. I have a thing for someone who I can't be with but atleast i know how he feels and he knows how I feel.
Right now...my life sucks.