No matter what I do, I can't get him out of me. It has been a year and a half and I still feel the pain that was caused. Watching Good Will Hunting, I see Matt Damon tell Minnie Drive he doesn't love her and she falls apart. Suddenly I feel a pang in my chest and all I want to do is cry and be alone. When does the pain go away? Does the pain ever ( Read more... )

So I ran in to someone who is from my past today, and not a good someone either ( Read more... )

I've decided I'm going to write a book.

If I had time to write a million words about my life, I'd do it ( Read more... )

Currently, I am attending CMU. I'm having the time of my life with my new and old friends up there. As scared as I was that I would lose all my old friends when we split up, I quickly learned that that would be impossible. I've been hanging out with two of my besst friends, Sarah and Dani, and my Big bro, John Leech. Those three were some of the ( Read more... )

it's amazing how songs can affect a person. I was just thinking about the past, and how it's affected me, then the song Cancer - My Chemical Romance comes on. Gerrad talks about how people who have had cancer and how it affects your life, which is exactly what I had been thinking about. It really helped raise my spirits at the time and let me know ( Read more... )

I'm really sick of being pushed around and stepped on. I realize that I'm nice but you don't have to walk all over me and feel like shit. When I buy you lunch, is it too much to expect you to eat it with me, instead of taking it and walking down to the guys room down the hall? When I let you sleep and be quiet and tell others to be quiet, is too ( Read more... )

SO right after school i was driving down County line. The person in front of Megan Leech (who was in front of me) braked really hard. Causing her to brake hard, which caused me to brake hard. I barely tap her and pray to god that she doesn't mind. Suddenly. BOOM! Three crashes immediately follow. I get out of my car, run to the back and see that it ( Read more... )

4am
Chesterfield Police Station
April Fools
Jail
Drunk Driving
Hero
Impounded
Work
Owe

All of those words were used today between 3:30 and 4:15 causing me to lose sleep and feel nausiated today. Score.

I'm having a difficult time grasping the fact that I'm a senior this year and that in less then two months, I won't have a place to go to during the week. I'm having a hard time grasping the fact that after this summer, it's all over. I'm so excited for college, but I'm so scared of growing up. Being by yourself. Getting a career. A home. I know ( Read more... )