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These have been some of the best and worst times of my life. Ive used this thing to complain and worry 99% of the time, but its mine and i use it for what i will ( Read more... )

those crimson walls i painted......
now mine will be the same.

endless words without sounnd. your mouth moves and your eyes gleam but the sound of everything around is void. you touch me but i cant feel your warmth. the infinity of this situation. easily shrowded, it slowly crept up ( Read more... )

If this is how "normal" people live, if this is what happy is, i will forever plead insanity. nothing is worth this.

p.s. i hate doctors, especially young, nervous, pen happy ones.

spread the wings i clipped, now rehealed

im so sorry, for everything.

my wonderful few weeks continues. stiff after stiff tonight at work delivering. i decide to get some new music, im needing something. i wonder the aisles and as always make the guys earn the money for the night looking for CDs for me. not much but enough to keep me going ( Read more... )

rumaging through and discover, the length of time unravels. its unsteady and remarkably cold. that ticket to that receipt to that dog. everything i ever wanted. thinking we are going up and your just hanging on ( Read more... )

I started it off way wrong. let it fall, connected through space now stacked all leaning on each other. it shows you apart, it shows the gap and the pattern is broken. they fall continuously a group to a group. vows once uttered, taken back ( Read more... )

hazing and long, cresting that endless hill. to the sky i see it, crusted all in baby pink and baby blue. twirling and entertwined, how i want to be. its ironic, favoritism aside even, though mostly simply that. how something so close is so far away. how illumination brings it all out from a dull void of black, to pastels beyond imagination. ( Read more... )